The order my emotions went in:
Heartbreak
Anger
Depression
Numbness.
I was ultimately numb. This was like being stabbed, that's literally how it felt. I felt as if someone just dug a knife into me but more than once. Like 1,000 times. Catching Ryan was like a walk in the park compared to this.
I thought Emma didn't even like Luke. As many times as I keep telling myself it might not be what I think it is, I realize how suspicious everything seems.
It's been a week since I caught them. I haven't been able to confront either of them about it since I realize another relationship and 2 more friendships will be lost.
I've tried my best to avoid both of them. I stopped answering Emma's calls and texts and found away to get out of the house as much as possible. I left for my mothers about 2 days ago. I told Luke that I missed her and that Id be back soon.
"Maybe it's not what you think it is. Maybe it's just harmless." My mother said while taking a sip from the mug in her hands.
"But why would he be nervous if I found out? And why would they feel the need to sneak around?" I questioned.
"I don't know. I'm just really hoping it's something innocent because I love Luke. We've known him for years and he just doesn't seem like he'd do that."
"I hoped the same thing mum, but I thought the same with Ryan."
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I stayed with my mom for a few more days until she basically forced me back home when Luke began calling her phone asking if I was okay and when i would be back.
I made my way into the apartment slowly, trying to go undetected. My plan was working until I went to put down my bag and my car keys crashed to the floor causing noise in the room above me.
"Hello? Who's here?' I heard Luke call cautiosly from the staircase.
"It's just me, sorry I dropped my bag." I responded sheepishly.
I heard his footsteps pounding down the staircse and watched as he ran over to me to pull me into a tight embrace. I shouldn't be hugging him back, but all I want to do is tell him how much I missed him yet at the same time I wanna curse him out and tell him what I know and that he should leave since this was my place before anything.
"I missed you so much." He whispered into my hair, rubbing circles into my back.
"Yeah...I'm sure you did." I mumbled, thinking he wouldn't be able to hear me.
"What's that supposed to mean?" He asked pulling away, but his hands still rested on my back. He walked over to the sink and filled a glass he grabbed from the cupboard with water.
"You should have just hung out with Emma." I replied innocently and batted my eyelashes along with it to give it full effect.
"You're mad I've been with Emma?"
"No shit Sherlock." I shot back.
"Wow I didn't think it was that much of a big deal, you wanted us to get closer."
"Not this close!" I yelled
"Hey you wanted it and we did what you wanted. We just got a little closer than aquatinces"
Why the fuck is he treating this like it's not a big fucking deal.
"Wow. What makes you any different from Ryan, Luke? Huh? Please explain it to me because I'd love to know what makes you any different than that asshole."
"Kassidy. What the fu- oh my god. Do you think I've been screwing around with Emma?!" He yelled, startling me.
"I saw you two, dumbass."
"Please explain to me what exactly you saw because nothing happened"
"You guys were having like a secret meeting or something at taco bell. Don't say it didn't happen because I was there and I-"
"Wait a second, you followed me to Taco Bell?" He interuppted.
"Yes but only because I heard your phone call and worrying about if I found out what was happening."
"So you honestly believe I've been cheating on you?" He questions, while a hurt and somewhat angry expression lays on his face.
"What else am I supposed to think Luke? That nothing is going on at all? I heard the phone call worrying about if I found out or not. So yes, I do think that you are cheating on me."
Luke's face immediately twisted into a face of rage and I literally felt like I was about to see steam come out of his ears.
"Sorry sweetheart, but you couldn't have been more wrong." He laughed.
"Then tell me what this is Luke. Tell me what I'm supposed to think and why I'm supposed to believe that you're not cheating, ok? Give me one good reason to not leave you right now and to not think you're just another Ryan. Go ahead. I'm waiting."
The next moments seemed to go in slow motion. The glass luke had in his hands flew overtop of my head and shattered against the wall. Luke began screaming profanities and yelling nonsense as I stood silent and panicked. I want to wrap him in my arms and tell him that it's ok but he's not getting off the hook for this one.
"Luke," I started. He spun around on his heel with tears streaming down his face, causing my heart to break even more. "I think we need a brake. I'm going to stay at my moms for now. I'll get my stuff later."
"No Kass, Kass please no. Don't do this," He sobbed as I grabbed my car keys.
"Then just tell me what happened Luke. Tell me what's going on." I cried.
"I can't. I promised I wouldn't. It will ruin it. I can tell you Thurs-"
"Fine. If you can't explain it now and I have to wait them so be it. But for right now consider us done." I cut him off slamming the door.
I heard Luke sob even louder and the sound of breaking glass ran through my ears again. I couldn't hold the tears any longer, as I climbed inside of my car, everything that has happened in the past year came out of me in the form of tears, hiccups, and screams.
A/N:
Guess who's back
Back again
Kierstins back
With Friends
OMG BTW FRIENDS IS ALMOST AT 1K READS WTF
YOU ARE READING
Friends|| l.h.
Fanfiction"It's crazy to think we started out the way we did." "Oh yeah, and what was that?" "As friends"
