Petetrick One shots

Lost You

I loved and I loved and I lost you

It pains me to see you with her and not me.

It hurts to know I pushed you away.

It kills me to hear you talk about her.

When you talked about me the same way.

It tears me apart to see you happy.

Something I could never do.

I tried so hard to make this right.

But you didn't want to.

I wish I could hold you again.

Make you feel like a king.

But now you're gone and here I stay,

Feeling like a broken swing.

I loved you Patrick.

But Now you're gone.

And kicked me out of the band.

I wish I knew.

Just how you felt.

And gave you a helping hand.

I don't expect you to forgive me.

Not even glance my way.

But would be fantastic.

If you'd unblock me so I could say.

I love you Patrick, I truly do. No matter how much I say it. I know you'll never feel the same. I pushed you away. Thinking I was helping you but really I was killing you. I'm sorry. I don't expect to come back to the band but I miss us. I miss going on tour. I miss our talks. Joe and Andy hate me now, but that's pretty much my fault. I wish you knew how I cared for you. how much I didn't want to leave. But here I am, writing again, to someone who will never hear. Please be happy Patrick. Please forget I exist. Live your life happily, not remembering all the things I could never fix.