Downpour - sequel to Dark Storms

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"Look I know you probably don't want me here. You probably don't want to see my face ever again, but I'm here to apologize. For everything. I hate hearing that you're back in that ditch again. I'm here to start putting ground under your feet. I'm here to help. Not save. Because I can't save you. You can only save yourself. And want to. I don't want to lose you." He was crying at this point. "Erika, I miss you. I need you. We've been through so much and not talking is tearing me apart. I need you. You're my sun." I started crying when he said this. I remember that day. When everything was happy and we were normal. Normal. I wonder what that feel like. Because I honestly forget.

I looked at him and nugded my head to the right to say 'C'mere' he smiled softly and I gently reached up and hugged him. "Thank you." I mumbled. "I needed to. I can't forget about you that easily." I smiled and took his head into my hands. "Oh my god you're smiling!" He spoke jokingly. I slapped his arm laughing. "Now laughing?? I can't handle this." "Shut up Mendes." I smiled kissing him. 

I went home a week later. Shawn took two weeks off since my birthday was coming up. "Guess what." Shawn spoke before kissing my hand as we walked out of the airport. "What?" He had to go back and get his things for two weeks and allow Jack and Jack to take his place for a bit. Which both of them were estatic about. Shawn said they owed him big time, even though it was only three shows. "I know what your parents got you for your birthday. Both you and Daniel." "If you tell me I'll cry. " "That's why I'm not telling you." "Good."  I laughed and squeezed his hand tightly. "You okay?" "Yeah, yeah." I sighed a bit feeling my head race. He stopped making me almost fall over. "Are you sure babe?" "Headache." "Oh. Alright." I nodded and we headed home.

"Shawn are you sure you can't just stay here?" "No I can't I have to. Jack's sick and can't do it. It's just in Michigan. It's not far." "Okay.. I love you." "I love you more. I'll be back soon." I sighed and watched as Shawn ran out to the cab. Jack Johnson had gotten sick and they couldn't find a replacement for the show. So where was I? At home on my couch two days before my birthday. My eighteenth to be more specific. We were having all of my family and stuff over. So Shawn promised to be here.

It's my birthday. And I'm sat staring at the keyring to my new pickup. Alone. I smiled at Destiny who walked up to me. I picked her up and started playing with her. I walked over to her toys and started playing with them with her. See Bailey had to run back to her hotel with the twins and Nash, Cameron forgot it was my birthday and was with his girlfriend Audrey. Jack Johnson was in Michigan with Shawn and Jack G. Matt in LA, Carter at home. Taylor at home. Lauren in college down in New Mexico. So I was alone. "Hey the birthday girl shouldn't be on the floor." I looked up and saw Nash standing behind me. "Oh, hey. Yeah I have nothing better to do. " "You wanna go for a drive?" "Okay..." I stood up and Nash had his hand behind his back. "Nash.." "Erika..." He spoke pulling out a small present. "You're the best." I smiled and opened it. It was a cd. "Erika's List." "I asked Mahogany what your favorite songs where and put them on a CD. And I ordered you a new Hollister hoodie. But that's late." "Awww Nash thank you so much." I spoke hugging him. "Let's go play that thing!" We went driving down the same road Shawn and I took for our Waffle House trip and I pulled over. "You okay?" I looked at him and shook my head. I started crying trying not to mess up my makeup. "He said he'd be here." "I know. Maybe his flight got delayed or something."

He called me later to apologize saying that they planned another booking because of popular demand and he couldn't do anything about it. "I'm sorry." "I'm sorry too." "What are you sorry for?" "For thinking you'd be here. You'e never here anymore." "Babe, tour's almost over I promise. I'll be done on the 24." "Of what?" "December." "Great. You're missing Christmas Eve." It was quiet for a few minutes before he spoke. "I love you." I sighed and smiled very slightly. "I love you too."