Stay With Me

I'm sorry.

Forks has an unusually boring high school. I have five classes in a semester. Paul and I have been seeing each other for a couple months now. As I sit in the cafeteria for lunch my phone vibrates.
(TEXTS FROM PAUL ARE ITALICIZED, TEXTS TO PAUL ARE BOLD PRINT.)

Hey darlin. I know you're in school, but I was wondering how your day is going. I miss you.
Hey hon. My day is going by pretty slowly. But other than that it's good. I miss you too. How's your day been?
It's been ok. Jake and I are arguing about who's day it is to spend with you. I know it's his day, but I am trying to see if he can trade days with me. Like I take tonight with you and he takes tomorrow instead of me having tomorrow. I'm off of work today.
Oh hun. Tell Jake that I told you not to make me come all the way over there in the middle of the school day. Because if I do I'm kicking him on the butt. He laid out of school today.
He said I can have tonight. Could I pick you up from school?
Tell Jake to pick me up. In twenty minutes. Jake and I need to talk.
Oh. Ok. What's wrong babe?
Nothing at all baby. I just need to talk to Jake. He probably feels like I'm paying more attention to you than I am to him. He's my best friend, and I'm his best friend. I think he feels lost and alone.
He's a sissy.
Paul Erik Lahote don't you dare call him a sissy because his feelings are hurt. How would you feel had we been friends for 16 years and then Jake came along and imprinted on me, and I started spending all my time with him instead of with you. You would even take a couple hours a week instead of just not seeing me anymore. And unless you want me to stop spending time with you as much, do not pick on Jacob again. Now, I've got to go. He just pulled up. I'll see you soon. I'm taking Jacob to the store with me to cheer him up.
Ok. I'm sorry Bella. And I will apologize to Jake as soon as I get the chance. I didn't mean to disappoint you. I guess there's a little of the old me left still.
It's ok. But this is Jakes time with me. You know the rules.

I turned my phone on silent after that. It's not fair to the one I'm spending time with if I'm texting the other one the whole time.
"Hey Jake."
"Hey Bells. I'm sorry I didn't go to school. I just feel... I feel like I'm a loser. I know I'm not but I can't help feel like I am. I feel like a freak."
"You are not a loser Jake. And to make you feel better, we are going to get you some new clothes. I know you've shredded all of your clothes besides two pairs of cutoffs."

          A/N
Sorry for the short chapter but it's like 11 pm here and I'm tired. I'm also sorry that I haven't updated like I said I would. I'll try to do better longer chapters, but it's hard to type so much on an iPhone. Anyways, thanks for the support. Comment what you think my next chapter should be about. Rate. And enjoy. XOXO CARRIE.