Ashley's Story - A Diary

Broke Up

Me and my boyfriend recently split. I was hesitant to write this, but I realized I needed to, so my emotions were let out. My boyfriend used to let me discuss my feelings with him, but it'll be different now. 

For starters, I feel shame that I lost the one boy who treated me nice. My exes before him were toxic and cruel, manipulative men. He was different, and I lost him because of me. That'll pain me and haunt me.

Secondly, I somehow feel okay, because this is the first relationship where the breakup didn't involve the man screwing with my emotions and messing with me before dumping me. Him and I had a valid, peaceful conversation, and although I cried myself to sleep that night, it wasn't his fault, it was mine.

Finally, I'm hopeful for the future. The door with him might open again or maybe now I've made a new lifelong friend. He made me realize my self worth, even if I doubt it sometimes, he taught me I deserve the right man, a good, honest, caring man who'd do anything for his queen. 

I'll always cherish the times we shared!