𝕀𝕤𝕤𝕦𝕖𝕤- 𝕐𝕦𝕣𝕚𝕠 𝕩 𝕣𝕖𝕒𝕕𝕖𝕣

4

Huff  
          Huff ....
"Wait!!! Please! I'm sorry! I'll be good! Come back!!
                           Huff
                                       Huff...

"Mommy!? Dadd-

*Trip*

*Gasp*

I shoot up from my bed and look around my room.
"That stupid fucking dream again. Maybe Mom is right. I should get a therapist." Sighing, I run my hand through my hair and lay down, staring at the ceiling.

Don't do it, y/n. Lila is going to think there is something wrong with you and kick you out. Don't kid yourself.

I turn to my desk and grab my lanyard with my keys attached to it.
Putting my shoes on, not even bothering to change from my tank top and fluffy pants. I walk out the house and straight to my car.

Click

I pull out of the driveway and down the street onto the highway. I turn on some music and drive till I find the nearest field or empty parking lot.

An empty Walmart parking lot
That works

I pull into the parking lot, park the car, and turn the music up.
I just sit there. I can feel the tears welling up in my eyes.

This always happens.
It's 2 in the morning.
Why do I do this to myself?

I can feel my grip on the steering wheel getting tighter and my knuckles getting pale.

This is the only place where Lila won't here me cry, I'm not her problem so she shouldn't have to worry about me, I don't want her to worry. She doesn't deserve that.

Before I know it I can feel my body freeze and my heart quicken. I can feel my throat trying to keep the sobs in until I finally take a breath in. It all comes out.

I can't help it anymore. I'm just so lost.

My sobs become increasingly louder and more raw. I can feel the car shake and the rain put onto the car.

No one knows I'm here right now. What if I just stayed here? What if I continued to drive and never came back? Just like my parents? They must be happy right?

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I can't do that to Lila. I'm better than them.

I can feel myself begin to breathe again and my grip loosen but I'm still sobbing. I look down at my hands and I can see that I'm shaking. While looking down at my hands I see a light in the corner of my eye, it's another car.
A police car
Shot what do I do? I look suspicious as hell in an empty parking lot. They probably think I'm selling drugs.

I pull my registration and license out then put everything and my hands on the dash.

The car parks right next to me and I see an officer get out and walk to my window.

Fuck....
Wait- I'm not doing anything illegal?

I'm broken from my thoughts as I hear a tap on my window. I roll the window down and meet the face of the officer.

"Any reason that you're parked in an empty parking lot at 2 in the morning?" She asks while looking down at her note pad.

Cmon y/n conjure up your best "I wasn't crying, officer" voice.