Just Trying To Get By

December 21

I woke up to Kells and Dubo arguing. "Bro, he may press charges what arent you getting??" Dubo yells at Kells.

"I dont care!! It dont matter to me what that fucker does!!" Kells yelled angrily and annoyed at him.

I stepped which seem to seize the argument between the two. "What happened??" I asked a little annoyed because my sleep was interrupted.

Dubo looks at me "Mr.I-Think-I-Can-Do-Whatever-The-Fuck-Kelly over here thought it was cool to get into a bar fight".

I look over at Kells, his eye black and blue and his perfectly shaped lips was cut. He held a bag of peas on his eye and mixed vegetables on his lips. Serves that nigga right for trying to start shit with me. But he looked so cute and helpless that i could not be mad at him for long.

"Who did this to you??" I asked sincerely.

He looked at me,"some guy" and turn back to Dubo "look he wanna press charges let him..i got other shit to worry bout".

"Whatever son" Dubo said and went to lay in his bed.

"Yo,tell that girl in the back she gotta go" Kells demanded me.

I give him that nigga tf i look like look but still proceed to do as he says.

"Bitch,its time for you to go" i tell her and open the window.

I cant believe its the same fucking groupie that was on him last night he let in to fuck. This nigga got fucking balls.

"Can i bath first??" She asked clearly hungover.

"Bitch no get the fuck out" i said picked up her shit,lead her outside and helped her leave.

Fuck outta here bitch. I was so tired of Kells and his shit. Really a fucking groupie. I walked over to him and smacked him. Not really caring for that moment.

"What the fuck??" Kells said holding his cheek.

"You had the nerve to bring another bitch in here?? Who helps you with your laundry, who cooks your food who the fuck has been riding with you for years?? And that the shit you pull" i said clearly furious.

"Muthafucka,even you said it...we arent together it shouldnt matter what i do and it shouldnt matter what you do. Maybe you should listen to yourself sometime." He says that and goes to the lounge.

I hate that he does this to me. If it was anyone else i wouldnt even care who they came in with. But with that nigga he makes me feel so vulnerable. And i get even more jealous when he does not seem to make an effort. I mean i get that he may be mad still from last night but jealously just came over me. I sit and think about how to make this better between him and I.

5:15

Im so glad these stores are still open. We already had a tree in the bus just without any presents or ornaments. Kells has been talking bout this new watch he wanted but would never pay the price for. Little does he know that i got people everywhere for discounts, however im not gonna tell him that. I got him the watch and two pairs of custom made,sick ass converse that hes gonna love and some other stuff. I hope he gets me something but course im not gonna tell him that. I wanna make this Christmas big, like our own little family in the tour bus, no bitches no other niggas just us,maybe even Cassie can come over. I actually like the sound of that. I smile to myself as i grab the ornaments to decorate the tree and some food to cook the day before Christmas.