please don't say we're done when i'm not finished.
"It's over." Lin declared briefly, not bothering to look up at you.
You stood there, blood rushing through your whole body, sending chills down your spine. Your brain stopped functioning for a second and you weren't sure if it would work right ever again. You couldn't believe he just said that. You thought he never would.
"But-" you began, not sure if there was anything you could say to make him stay. All you knew was that you had to fight. Fight for him. Like you did all the time.
"No," he cut you off. "I'm done with your bullshit, [Y/N]. I'm tired. I'm tired of listening to this. I can't take it anymore. Why are you like this? Why do you keep fucking everything up?"
Lin ran his hand down his face and squeezed his eyes shut. He didn't have to keep it open, you knew what they were full of. Anger. Anger, disappointment and guilt. You hated yourself so much for not being good enough, for causing him pain, for making him suffer, for ever coming into his life. Lin was too good for you. A tear appeared in the corner of your eye, but you ignored it. You couldn't let yourself cry. Not then, not when he was standing in front of you, almost falling apart because of how mad you drove him.
"Lin, y-you know I love you. You're the only reason I'm still here. I live for you and you only, you know it. So-"
"So?" he cut you off again. "So what? So how come you keep hurting me? You can't fucking stand yourself. And I don't know why. No matter what I do, no matter how hard I try, I can't make you happy. I can't make you look at yourself the way I look at you. I don't know whose fault it is anymore. But you know what, [Y/N]?"
For just a second you hoped that he would look at you, but he just glanced at your feet and got distracted again, eyes wandering all over the place.
"At this point... I don't even care. I've had enough."
Your heart stopped. You weren't ready to lose him. God, you weren't ready to face anything without him.
"Lin," you whispered. "Look at me."
"No."
"Please."
He took a deep breath and turned his gaze to you.
"You know I'm doing my best."
He chuckled. You couldn't believe it at first, but that's exactly what he did. Your confused stare made him laugh even more.
"Yeah. Find someone who will believe you. I don't."
i could give you so much more, make you feel like never before.
"I gave you my heart. Lin, you have my heart. Isn't this enough?" you cried out, trying to catch your breath.
He was rushing through the halls of Richard Rodgers Theatre. You grabbed his hand and tried to make him listen to you. Make him give you one more chance. Lin shook his arm rapidly, causing you to fall to your knees. He disappeared in a matter of seconds.
welcome, they said – welcome to the floor.
"And you've broken it! You've shattered it! Lin, please!" you screamed at the top of your lungs, your voice cracking somewhere in the middle of the sentence. Your own words echoing through the building were the only answer you got.
it's been a while and you've found someone better, but i've been waiting too long to give this up. the more i see, i understand.
"Who is she?" you sounded emotionless. Chris shot you a hesitant look.
"I'm not sure. She's blonde and she used to work on West End. That's all I know."
"She's blonde? So you've seen her?" He nodded.
You caught a glimpse of the joyful smile that was spread across Lin's face. He was talking on the phone. He looked happy. You couldn't stand the sight of someone else making him feel this way. Slowly getting up, you tried not to tear up.
"You're a lot prettier, you know?"
You smirked and suddenly you heard Lin's genuine laughter fill the room. You left without saying goodbye to anyone.
but sometimes i still need you.
"Lin!" you heard Jasmine's forceful voice as she tried to catch Lin's attention.
You didn't want her to call him, but you simply stopped caring. You were drunk and lying on the bathroom floor of some random club. Jasmine just witnessed one of your panic attacks. All of that caused by a stupid song that reminded you of him. You just sat there, shaking and not knowing what to do, with make up running down your face making you look even more hopeless than you felt.
"Can you fucking listen to me?" she shouted into her phone.
Your thoughts drifted away and you felt your eyes slowly close, tiredness taking the best of you. You weren't sure how long it took, you weren't sure whether it was ten minutes or an hour – but he showed up.
"What the fuck is wrong with you?" he panted. You heard Jasmine say something, but you were too distracted by his sparkling eyes to focus on her voice. Lin slipped his hands under you and lifted you up. His warmth embraced you and you felt safe for a while. You felt loved.
and i was struggling to get in, left waiting outside your door. i was sure you'd give me more.
You refused to enter his apartment.
"I don't want to look at her," you murmured. You were too proud to admit that you weren't strong enough to bear the sight of her. Even though you were absurdly drunk.
"Who are you talking about?" Lin whined, half asleep and quite confused.
"The blonde girl you're fucking."
The dim lights spread all over the street made the dark circles under his eyes seem even darker.
"I'm not fucking anyone."
no need to come to me when i can make it all the way to you.
You woke up in his strong embrace, his hot breath on your neck and his arms around your waist. You wanted this moment to last forever. Turning around, you gently cupped his face and pressed a light kiss to his lips. He woke up instantly.
you made it clear. you weren't near, near enough to me.
He pushed you away.
heart skipped a beat.
You begged.
and when i caught it you were out of reach. but i'm sure, i'm sure you've heard if before.
"I'm yours forever, Lin. I'm yours and I will never be anyone else's. Remember that."
