By Your Side - EreRi (ErenxLevi)

Chapter 1 - Broken

(Author's Note) -- This is the first ever fanfiction I am attempting to write. I really hope I do well and I make a story worth reading. I will try my very best and give it my all! Please help me along the way I know writer's block and lack of motivation are bound to happen. Give me suggestions and tips anything to make this story more enjoyable and worth reading. This story contains yaoi (boyxboy) if you do not approve of yaoi or this pairing alone please do not read this story. Enjoy chapter 1

Additional Note: This story alternates between POV's and Third Person!

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Eren's POV

After that day...that...horrible, insufferable day I was never the same. Again, I had let everyone down, drove innocent people to their deaths all because I had made the wrong choice. What can I say after all I'm just a hard-headed, good for nothing monster who should have died along with every other soul that suffered.

I hadn't realized it myself, my sudden changed behavior. Lashing out at people more often, constantly bursting out in hysterical crying, and at least every 4-5 hours having panic attacks.

This wasn't like me I couldn't comprehend what was happening to me. But then I remembered...I was a murderer, useless and ignorant. Surely many people had witnessed my strange demeanor, that especially includes Mikasa and Armin. But after the whole ordeal I had taken it upon myself to completely distance myself from everyone, especially Corporal Levi...oh God...Levi.

There wasn't a single day that went by of the grief and guilt that ate away at me. I couldn't be within a 100 foot radius of the Corporal without having anxiety attacks or something that caused me to nauseate and vomit violently behind a tree, or somewhere unseen.

There wasn't anyone who was still alive that was more let down by me than him. And surely the fact that I loved him with every fiber of my being didn't make it any better. I know it hurt him like hell having his team, his family there beside him one moment and the next throwing their lifeless bodies off the wagons only to be trampled to nothing. Everyday since then I could see it in him, even though he still mustered his monotonous, stoic personality and expression. The pain was there I could see it in his eyes.

Corporal Levi, I could tell was also aware of my dramatically changed behavior, I didn't care though, no I only thought about how I was a burden to everyone mostly him. Seeing him stand there, proud and strong always holding his own would make my heart echo throughout my body and begin sobbing.