Unconditional

Chapter 15

I laid across my unmade bed that smelled of Burberry perfume. My thoughts kept managing to run through my head. I focused on the tiny little dust particles floating in the air. I watched them until I could no longer keep track.

The London sunset was slowly peeking through my windows, which was blinding me in the eyes, but I was to lazy to shut them.

"Are you going to lay there all day and think?" Alice says. She lowers her Cosmo magazine away from her face.

"No ... I'm just thinking." My eyes continue to wander around my high ceilings.

"Well you better walk and think because you have a date tonight." She moves her magazine back in front of her face. I could hear her turn the pages. "Did you know 60% of people will marry someone they know." She informs me.

"And your implying?" I look away from the Ceiling and over to Alice. She must know I'm looking , because she continues reading out facts.

"Look at this one!" She says. "It's about all different kinds of childbirth."

"Okay, I'm up." I slowly crawl of my warm welcoming bed. It looks so lonely and cold now. I actually couldn't wait to get back in it later . "Just please don't read any if that, and who puts that in Cosmo?"

"It's like they tell you about all this sex stuff , and then BAM, here's twenty different ways to have a kid." Alice says.

"I'm so not having children." I reply.

"You don't want kids?" She looks up at me , and lays the magazine down. I shouldn't have said anything , because I was about to get interrogated.

"I mean I do, I just don't want to give birth. I don't think I could physically and mentally do it. I cry when I get my finger pricked , how am I going to get a huge ass shot in my spine. You see my problem?"

"Do you want to adopt?"

"No, there's nothing wrong with adopting , I just don't want to."

"So basically you wish you could be a guy." She says.

"If I was pregnant , then of course. I like being a girl though. Those fucking boys , not having to go through that shit, lucky bastards. Like is this some joke . Why are we the ones who have to bleed from our vaginas and give birth. I'm sure god could have found a loophole so we didn't have to go through this shit."

"Amen to that sister. Liam thinks I'm just being a baby about it. I swear if I marry him, I'm doing that baby simulator thing on him . I'm gonna teach that boy , don't ever fuck with me when I'm cray cray."

I sit at the edge of my bed and slide on my Chelsea boots. Harry wouldn't mention where we were going, so just incase I was going to be prepared. I actually felt a bit nervous. You know when you are about to so something crazy and your stomach feels all weird, yeah that feeling. I've never really been on a actual date, and no high school doesn't count. He was actually cute too and we had so much in common, it was to good to be true.

"The butterflies are kicking in Alice. I'm freaking out now, what if I look like a complete idiot."

"Elena listen to me." Alice moves overs to the bed and sits next to me. I begin to feel a sense of panic. I look over at her ,waiting to here what she has to tell me.

"Harry is one of the most awkward people I have ever encountered in my entire life."

"But-" I say , but I'm cut off my Alice's hand going up in the air.

"He is, it's hard to believe but he truly is. Behind that bad boy persona , there's a ten year old boy. You might not be able to see it now, but what's you get used to him, your going to come back to me and tell me I was right."