Behind Her Smile

01-13-18

"Im happy for you althea" I hug her. She's been really good to me.

"How's your cafe?"

She sit beside me and cling to me "It's fine. I miss you so much besshy! Ang tagal mong hindi nag pakita saakin. Para makabawi ka saakin isama mo ako para makita ko si tita"

I smile to her. I want to start a new life. Ayoko nang maging nega or whatever you call that. I will start to build myself again with my family.

"For now hindi mo pa kasi pweding makita si mommy. Michael is planning something. So we can't go out kahit gustong gusto namin"

I know she will undertand. "How about harry?"

It's been a month since the last time I saw him. Though he still send a message to me telling me how sorry he is.

I miss him and I'm trying to heal the wound he gave.

"I'm planning to visit him"

She gently tap my shoulder "You guys should make up dahil bagay na bagay kayo. So you must talk to him na okey?"

I just nod. Dahil madaming customer si Taylor napag desisyunan ko nang umalis.

The truth is, Im not mad anymore. Gusto ko lang alisin lahat ng galit na meron ako sa aking puso. My mom and dad helped me a lot. They even explain kung bakit kinailangan ni harry na itago saakin ang lahat.

He was the only person who undertand me. There's no way in hell na iiwan ko sya.

Pagdating ko sa company nya sinalubong agad ako ng secretary nya.

"Goodmorning ma'am. Mr. Hemsworth is in the middle of meeting. Do you want me to notify him?"

I convulse my head "I'll wait inside"

Pumasok ako sa office nya. Uupo palang sana ako when the door suddenly open at iniluwa noon si Harry with someone else. Naka palupot ang braso nito kay harry habang pangiti ngiti pa. She even kiss him.

Shocked is written all over his face.

Surprise harry.

"Who are you? Who is she babe?" maarteng tanong saakin ng kasama nya.

Babe? Seriously?

Bitch. Don't you ever call my man 'babe'

Tumayo ako at ngumiti "Hi! I'm Althea Clarrise harry's ex-girlfriend. Didn't know na mahilig ka pala sa mga hipon" natatawang sambit ko.

"What did you say?" Galit na tanong saakin ng impakta.

"Clarrise" Wag na wag mo akong matawag sa aking pangalan.

You're so gross harry.

"You didn't hear me?" pangungutya ko sakanya.

"Oh my bad. I didn't know na bingi ka pala" dagdag ko pa.

"You're getting on my nerves bitch" akmang sasampalin nya ako when harry drag her outside. Ilang minuto lang ay bumalik ulit sya.

"Akala ko may babalikan pa ako. Di ako nainform na may iba kana pala" I tried so hard to stop myself from crying.

It's been just only a weeks. Didn't know na makaka hanap agad sya ng iba.

"Hey it's not like that" pagtatangi pa nito.

I sarcastically laugh "Then, is she your cousin?"

He looked down "No" mahinang sagot nito.

Natawa ako ng mapakla.

"I thought you are someone I can spend my life with"

"Let me explain. Hear me out first okey? Calm down and let's talk"

I stop. "You don't need to explain yourself harry. I understand everything. I thought you're different. Parehas ka lang pala nila"

"No--" I cut him off.

"You know what? Because of you all the hatred and pain in my heart disappear. Pero hindi ko akalain na ikaw din mismo ang magiging dahilan para bumalik ang mga iyon. I trusted you and you betrayed me. Alam mo ba gaano kasakit para saakin iyon? Ikaw yung taong alam ko na masasandalan ko. But I was wrong. Really really wrong"

He start crying. "Please baby hear me out this time" he beg.

Seeing him like this really break my heart.

"I want to make up with you harry. But I guess were just really not meant for each other"

He grab my hand. He even kneel down and it's breaking my heart "No please. Wag naman ganito"

Don't cry clarrise. It's fine. You're used to it.

"I loved you. For a very short moment na nakasama kita naging importante ka saakin. Ikaw yung taong hindi ko naisip na mawawala pa saakin"

Niyakap nya ang binti ko ng napaka higpit.

"Please give me once more chance. Just one more chance"

Dahan dahan kong inalis ang pagkakayakap nya saaking binti. I even help him to stand up.

Chance? I don't give something like that.

Hinawakan ko ang pisngi nya to dry his tears "Thank you for coming into my life. Hope you'll have a long long happy life. It was nice meeting you kups"

I turn my back. Sobrang bigat ng mga hakbang na ginawa ko.

Letting go someone you love is like giving up your whole life.

Its hurt. It's feels like there no reason for you go on. Mas masakit pa ito sa nangyari saamin ni Erwan. I didn't know na ganito pala ang magiging impact saakin ni harry.

I love harry so much.

Harry is someone who makes me feel really special and love. He was someone I trusted.

Gusto ko na talagang maki pag ayos sakanya but I didn't know everything would turn out like this.

Ang sakit at bigat sa dibdib na iwan sya. I don't want this to happend.

"Clarrise!" I look back. He's running and I saw how his body float in the air.

Beeeeeeeeeeeeep

Sa sobrang bilis ng pangyayari di ko namalayan na nasa sahig na ang katawan nya.

Tanging tunog ng mga sasakyan ang aking naririnig. I feel like bigla nalang tumigil ang mundo at paghinga ko.

"Harry" I whispher

"Oh my gosh! Call the ambulance please!"

"Patay na ba?"

"Si Mr. Hemsworth yan! Oh my gosh! Can someone please help us"

"Harry" I can't step my feet.

Please if this is a dream wake me up already.

Dahan dahan akong naglakad papalapit sa duguang katawan ni Harry.

Unti unting pumatak ang luha saaking mga mata.

"Harry! Hey please wake up" I gently tap his cheeks. Blood is running in his head.

"Help please!" I scream.

An ambulance came out. Isinakay nila si harry at dinala sa hospital.

Naiwan akong nakatulala sa kamay kong puno ang dugo nya.

Pasikip ng pasikip ang aking dibdib hanggang sa di ko namalayan na bumagsak na ako sa gitna ng daan.