caged emotions

Chapter 8. It's killing me

"When I first meet Rurik I didn't thought much about him. He stole my kill but apologized for it. I didn't like him that much. He had this cold distance attitude, I couldn't place in. He sometimes came into our headquarter to drink with our boss. Nobody cared about that. We sometimes would see him with other gangs. I started viewing him in a new light after I saw him fight against at least 20 people. First he started enraging them with insults while not reacting to theirs. His cold attitude became calm and manipulative. He made his enemys act predictable while keeping his cool and an upper hand. He easily defeated the others. After that I started admiring him. I gave my all to get better. I wanted to talk to him, get to know him, but even when I was able to talk to him he still keept his distance.

Then the boss asked Rurik to help me get better and it was like a dream came true. I showed him my all and he started to talk to me. One day I decided that I would get to let him open up when he thinks I would never betray him, so I started playing the lovesick fool. I started with occassional flirting and kept being in that role till I had no problems playing it. After some months he said something that hit me deep:"You're not acting anymore."
I never realized when my admiration turned into love but after he said that I realized I became a lovesick fool. After that I could get him to open up more and more. First I became his friend. Like that I learned some personal information about him and planned according on that. I really wanted him to fall for me.
After some time I thougt I got him and confessed..."

"And since then you're a couple?" Geno asked, grinning like a madman.

"... He rejected me."

"..."

"I'm going to get my scythe."

"I'm not finished yet. Sit down dad. And please don't interupt me again.
I didn't give up and tried again and again.
After some time I got an answer. But not something I expected. He snapped. It was the first time I saw him get angry. A guy tried to rape me.. Don't interupt, I'm still talking. Well.. Rurik killed him. But not in this fast manner like 'I kill you so you can't hurt anyone anymore' but more like a slow, painfull kill. And the whole time Rurik grinned and laughed as if he's gone insane.
I loved his cool calculating side but this other side was strong, emotional and all fired up. He was hot like hell.
After that day I learned that Rurik has seperated his emotions and logic from each other and normally shuts his emotions down to a degree where he himself can't feel anymore. Because of that he has a split personality and every time he feels too strong emotions his other half takes over. He never said yes because he doesn't know the emotion of love and is no liar.
But some days later he confessed to me. He said that he thougt about it and there was no other way than that he loved me for him to do what he did. Since then we were a couple."

"..So you are telling me that my son fell head over heel for an emotionless guy who rejected him on a regular basis, only for that guy to change his mind and chose to love him back?"

"If you say it like that then yes."

"Ya understand how that sounds, aren't ya?"

"Bro you're dating a psychopath."

"Yeah I know! It's mad love!"

"That isn't funny!!!" Geno screamed.

"What isn't funny?" Rurik asked from behind everyone, startling them to death. He chuckled sitting down on the other side of the couchtable, not after tripping over nothing and faceplanting on the floor.

"Nothing, it's nothing." Geno replied. "Why did you change into your military outfit? Now I can't see your tattoos." Raven whined pulling on Ruriks long sleve. Rurik pulled away, rubbing his shoulder and saying in a cold tone that would made everyones blood freeze -if they had any- :"That aren't tattoos, but scars. And I don't like them."
A shiver went down Ravens spine, making him sit straighter.

"Now I remember! I wanted to show you my art. Come with me, my atelier is behind the stairs."
With that Rurik stood up and went to a door in the shadows of the staircase. Behind that door was a really big room filled with sculptures, canvas and stacks of papers with paintings and poems. The whole room was a mess of artsupplies stuffed into beautiful shelves and cupboards. The tables were bowing under the weight of hundreds of artpieces.
But you could see the beauty of the room. The walls were a light blue like the sky. The floor was a green vinyl with occassional paintsplatters, letting it look like grass with flowers. The room had no windows but was illuminatet by a bright lamp at the roof.

"This are the pieces I haven't finished yet, but everything else is free for sale." Rurik said while pointing to three canvas leaning on the wall next to the door.
Reaper bent down to the next best painting, holding it up to his eyes. It showed a black background corpses littering the ground. "Looks like when I'm workin'." "Really? That's good then. It's a painting showing the different ways to die. I made it for a gallerie in Brasil but it was too expensive for the museum. I can probably sell it to you for 200 dollars." Reaper looked at Rurik sceptically. "Why should I pay that much?" "It's normal price was 2,000,000 dollars." "Geenoo~" "No!" Reaper let out a low whine making Geno roll his eye. "I said No. Look for something more usefull." "Okaaay... Hey kiddo, do ya have nudes?" "REAPER!" "In the shelve with the lionsculpture on top." "What the hell!!"

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I'm not sorry for anything written in this chapter.

And holy shit I have over a hundred reads!! I feel like making party.
So next chapter is Palettes POV.
I want to know if I should differ between the parts each figure speaks? Like underline or bold?

Well, see ya!