Torn

Chapter 17

I needed to keep myself busy. If i sat and thought for a long time, the guilt would overwhelm me. I realized just  how low it is to date your ex boyfriends best mate who also is an ex boyfriend of your bestfriend. But i also wanted Niall to realize how deeply i was in love with Harry and hope he would understand. It was public now that i was dating Harry since the paparazzi took countless photos of us together last week. That sparked up a bunch of twitter hate from the fans telling me what a slut i was. I did have a one or two fan accounts, even though i did absoulutely nothing to make the fans like me. A few did realize that as long as their beloved boys were happy they should be to. Of course, Harry tried to stop some of the hate by tweeting about it. 

I chatted with Val on facebook while looking at possible colleges. I wanted to be a doctor and she wanted to be a dancer. We helped eachother find right colleges for eachother and perfect our applications. 

It suddenly hit me that i would become "popular" in school when i go back this fall. Everyone would try to use me to meet the boys. I was usually always that kid that gets pushed around and bullied. But Valerie was quite popular so she made sure when she was around that i wouldnt get bullied but that didnt stop the death wishes inside my locker. I had already gotten countless facebook messages and texts from the girls who used to bully me. They all were tryng to coax me to get one direction to meet them. it was sickening. It was worse than bullying. The boys were all nice lads and quite funny. I had all befriended them and have gotten tweets and follows from them on twiter and texted them now and then. Something that would have seemed so unrealistic just a few months ago.

I was excited what Harry would be doing for my birthday in two weeks. He had been telling me it would be something big and i would love it. 

As i searched through colleges i heard a slight knock on my apartment door like the person was almost hesitant to enter and then louder. I opened the door and there stood Niall. I was so confused. Why was he here? He was mad at me. He scratched the back of his head. 

"Hey i just wanted to tell you i was sorry about the other day." He said looking down at the floor. 

"Its fine Niall, its a low thing to do but i want you to understand that Harry and I love eachother." I said. 

"Yeah i just need to get over it i guess because i'm still not over you." He said still looking at his shoes.

"But you are with that girl..?" I ask him.

"Her? I just used her as a disctraction to see if i would still have feelings for you." He said.

"Did that work?" I ask. 

"Not really, but i have to go Leyla i hope we can still be friends, i have to go back to the studio now bye" He said and walked away quickly.

I didn't really know what to do, I didn't really have much experience in love i've only had 3 boyfriends but they weren't anything serious we were in elementary school. 

He still liked me? i wasn't going to let that get in the way of my realationship with Harry. Harry's mine and i am his and it has been that way all along. 

I looked at colleges for a few more hours then i started to get ready for my date with Harry. Harry didn't really like girl who wore alot of makeup and i dont like makeup so i wore no makeup and just a simple pair of jean shorts and a white lace tank top. Harry & I would be going to have a walk in the park and some ice cream. There would also be a ferris wheel there. 

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The cool night breeze and Harry's warm hands in mine was perfect. I licked the cookie dough ice cream  Harry had bought for me a few minutes ago.  Harry told me about their new album and how excited they were for it. I told him about my plans to go to harvard and become a doctor.  The feelings i had around Harry were magical. I felt like our realationship was like a fairytale. 

"I love you" i randomly blurted out while Harry was explaining something to me. 

This made Harry blush and smile. 

"I love you too." He said and pulled me in for a long kiss. 

A small child came up Harry and tugged his pant leg. Harry pulled away from the kiss. 

"Yes?" He asked the child nicely. Harry was so good with kids, I had seen it myself when he was with Lux a few nights ago. 

"Are you two getting married? You should, your an amazing couple." The little girl said while licking her lollipop. 

My cheecks reddened

"Thank You, I hope we do get married one day aswell." Harry said and patted her on the back. 

When the child left i hugged Harry and whispered "I hope we do too one day."

He smiled and we slowly walked towards the ferris wheel. 

***

"Are you scared of heights?" I asked Harry as we got into one of the carts at the Ferris Wheel. 

"Erm thats more Zayn, i'm alright with them i guess. What about you?"  He asked me. His emerland eyes shined in the moonlight.

"I love them, they are so thrilling and make you feel like your at the top of the world." I say. 

As we inched closer to the top Harry said "Leyla, next year after your graduation would you like to go on tour with me and the boys for our summer tour? I realized i wouldnt able to bear being away from you for too long." 

Would it be awkward with Niall around? 

But then i realized i dont care. I love Harry. 

That is, if we still are together next year. After everything in my life, my dad abondoning me and leaving me with my abusive mother, it was hard to trust anyone.

But i felt that just this once, everything would be alright.

I looked up at the moon and the stars and then at Harry. 

"Of course." I say and leaned in for a kiss. I put my arms around his strong body and held him tight. 

We were infinite. 

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-Nikki ;D

What a perfect couple.