I sent out so many apologies
I'm sorry
Im sorry
Im sorry
After I sent them I tied it
I tied the rope
The rope thats been under my bed since valentines day
I tied it
I stood on my bed
Ready to go
I already said sry to friends
I have so many letters written
All to be sent when I'm dead
I stood there
I pulled it off my neck
And i sat there
I sat on my bed and cried
I got a text I refused to look
I got another
And another
She was getting worried
I was getting sadder
I looked at my phone
We had been arguing for a while
Too long
She threatened to die if i died
Though i know its a lie
If I died nonone would care
No one would cry
No one in their right mind would love me
No one loves me
So why did i sit down
Why did I stop from stepping down
Why didn't I have enough courage
Enough to put everyone else out of their misery
Enough to make everyone else happy
Why
Didnt
I
Just
Fucking
Take
The
God
Damn
Step
.
.
.
.
I dont know.
The rope is gone
I threw it away
I left it in the trash
I cried
Why didnt I just die!!!
WHY COULDNT I JUST HAVE THE COURAGE TO TAKE THE LAST STEP
I dont know
I don't why i just couldnt die
YOU ARE READING
I cant write poems
Poetrythis is probally going to be poems (i cant write poems so just a warning for cringey content) i should probally put a trigger warning i get deep sort of....so warning i guess....
