Where do I begin? Well first off, hello. I'm not going to tell you my name or age but you can call me red. I am a lesbian.
I first realized this not too long ago, but I've always felt it. I've always had that love for women. I wouldn't like the female and male relationships on television. I only liked the girl and girl ones. I HATE wearing dresses. Like, despise the shit. I always shopped in the boys section in the stores, and my parents always had to buy my clothes for me. My parents, yeah, well, they don't know about me.
I have come out to a couple of my friends. They have all loved and supported me. But, the way I realized I was gay was because of one of my best friends. Let's just call her L.
L is your typical woman. She is smart, beautiful, kind, honest, and just amazing. (If you couldn't tell, I still like her) One day in the beginning of eighth grade, she asked me to go on a camping trip with her and her family. At this point, I didn't really know that I was gay.
So I obviously went. We went to Cedar Point in Ohio. It was amazing. Throughout the trip, we were inseparable. We sat next to each other, we did everything together even if it was just going to the toilet. We sat next to each other on this one ride and, when we were at the top of this huge drop, I looked over at her. This was the point when I realized I had feelings for her.
Her hair was blowing because it was a little windy outside. Her eyes were such a beautiful blue that no other color can even match the shining blue that hers was. I was just looking at her profile and I felt those god damn butterflies. Those butterflies have only come around once in my life, and guess what, that was in fifth grade when she held my hand for the first time. Obviously I didn't know what my feelings were supposed to mean, but now I do.
Skip a couple days and we're driving home! Yay! So we went to Cedar Point in her R.V. It had a couch, kitchen, beds ect. This was around the time of a huge history test. And when I say HUGE I mean HUGE. We were both in opposite ends of the couch studying and making flash cards. We both eventually gave up because it was super boring. Next thing I remember, it's L laying down by me, with her head on my chest, and arms around my waist. I don't really remember how we got into that position, but I remember being hella nervous. I'm sure she heard my heart beating erratically.
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We sat like that the whole drive home. (Sorry about the picture. It's to help you guys understand what position we were in. It's not completely accurate tho)
There is definitely more to my story, and this is only the beginning.
