Chapter 11..
This is not me
This wil only be Harry's POV, next only Romy's :)
This song belongs at this chapter, about how Harry feels >
From @1Dutchies_x
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Harry's POV
I realized i pulled Lisa closer. This is not right. I pushed her of me and stared at her.
'I can't do this', i stood up and walked towards the door.
'harry wait', i turned around and gazed in her eyes.
'i-i dont know what to say', she said looking down at the floor.
'there's no need to say anything, i'm done here with my time i spend with you, i can't go out with you,i can't see you again.. i'm sorry, i just can't', and with that i turned around out of her door and slammed it. I was clearing my mind when i walked my way towards the studio.
This is not me. When i'm not around Romy, i'm not myself. I need to clear my mind. What am i gonna do ? Stop with One Direction ? No, i never can leave my brothers. But why is everything so difficult right now. I looked at my phone. 10 missed calls from Louis. 3 messages from Liam, and another texts from Zayn and Niall. I clicked on one of them, it was from Niall:
'' Harry ? Where are you ? We've been worried sick !! ANSWER ''.
I sighed, put my phone back in my pocket, and walked in the studio. I came closer to our changingroom and listened to their voices.
' WHERE IS HE ?', i heard Louis scream.
'Lou calm down, he's just clearing his mind because of Romy left', that was probably Liam.
'What if he is drunk again ?', then there was a long silence. I was done with this conversation, so i walked in the room. They saw i cried a little so they said nothing came over to me and hugged me.
'harry, where have you been, we've been worried sick ya know', Niall said.
'i..i..- i cleared my troat and then began to speak again- i was at a girls place'.
They all looked at me confused. 'Who's this girl?', Zayn asked crossing his arms.
'I bumped into her when i was so upset about Romy, She said it will be alright and asked if she wanted to talk, so i agreed and went in her house, i was crying about Romy and she cut me of middle of the sentence, and well.. you know what happened', i said looking down.
'she kissed you?', Niall asked raising his eyebrows.
'yup', i said popping the p and looking at their faces. They were all thinking. But somehow they couldn't believe i kissed someone else. Even i wasn't with Romy anymore, they know i still love her.
'but i refused and pushed her away from me, i said we couldn't see or speak to each other again'.
They all sighed. 'Thank god Harry, i thougt you were falling in love with someone else already', Zayn said.
'but you still love Romy don't you?', Niall asked.
'yeah, i think she is the love of my life, it was such a big mistake to let her go a year ago', i said looking down. Louis patted me. 'it happens to everyone'. I smiled at them, i want her back.
'shit', i cursed.
'what?', they all looked shocked.
'I forgot that she was gone', a tear escaped my eye. Gosh harry you need to stop crying over her.
'we're gonna find her, i promise', Liam said before heading upstairs.
Niall and Zayn smiled and hugged me before following Liam.
'Just go and get some sleep bro, tomorrow is our first show'.
I thanked Louis and headed upstairs. I didn't even bother to change so i just wanted to lay naked. I couldn't care about the boys walking in. I layed down and slipped under the duvets. I thougt about Romy, then i got a flashback when i laid here with her.
*FLASHBACK* (A/N didn't happen in the chapters)
'Romy babe', i wispered in her ear.
'mmmh harry let me just get some sleep', she mumbeled.
'ahh please, not already ? ', i kissed her neck softly she moaned.
'you're such a dirty boy aren't you?'.
How does she knows what i want ? Yes i want sex, because tomorrow is the day i have to go to
LA.
'please babe?'.
'Harry.. let me sleep', she turned around so she was facing me, 'just let me sleep'.
'please', i looked at her with the puppydog eyes, i know she can't regret it.
'because i love you so much', she took of my boxers and i took of her bra and panties. She laid on top of me and started kissing me. Rough and hard, but at the same time it was sweet and passionate. I pulled her closer to mine and we both moaned.
'WHAT ARE YOU DOING', We shot our heads to the direction Louis was standing. Romy quickly rolled of me and hide under the duvet.
'LOUIS WHAT ARE YOU DOING?', i screamed. Romy laughed under the duvets. I couldn't let it and let out a chuckle.
'I WAS GOING TO SAY GOODNIGHT, but when i stormed in, i saw 2 persons laying on top of each other', Me and Romy started laughing. She only had her eyes above the duvet.
'GET OUT', i screamed holding back my laughter.
'GET OUT GET OUT GET OUT OF MY HEAD, AND FALL INTO MY BED INSTEAD', with that he slammed the door.
We laughed and Romy rolled on top of me again.
'What...was..that?', she said laughing.
'i dont know, he only stood there in his boxers', i said wiping a tear away.
We both stopped laughing and just watched each other. i looked deeply in her eyes and then i realized how lucky i am. With her.
'I just want you to know that i'm lucky to have you', she said, i looked her in the eyes. It looked like she could read my mind.
'I'm lucky too... now where were we?', i said kissing her. I rolled over so i was now on top.
I looked at her and she said:'do it'.
We had an amazing night , in eachother ;)
*FLASHBACK GONE*
I snapped back to reality. God what a time we had together. i wiped another tear away and drifted off to a sleep.
*next morning*
'HARRY WAKE UP', Louis screamed.
I shot up and fall of my bed.
'What the fuck is going on?', I asked him standing up quickly.
'We know where she is'.
'Where who is?'.
He looked at me with a confused look. Then i know who.
'ROMY'. I grabbed clothes and louis wrist to take him downstairs. I saw all the boys in the hall standing there. I think they were waiting for me ?
'Don't say a word, we will explain everything in the car', Liam said. I nodded and followed them outside.
We were driving for a little while and i started talking:' so how do you know where she is?'.
'It all started when we saw the newspaper...'.
oh no..
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