Chapter 12
another day at the shore
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Romy's POV
I woke up at my first day at the shore. I loved it.. sun was hitting me and i heard the ocean.
I felt not good and runned towards the bathroom... you know what happened. I grabbed some tablets and took them. I felt weaker and weaker by the day and i know my end of my life was closer then ever.
i had only 1 month to live.
Yup first 3 but my doctor said i will be no longer to rescue. I was weaker then any other patient. I took my swimmingtrunks and sungglasses and walked out of the hotel towards the beach. It was only early in the morning so there was no sign of other guests. I looked around and closed my eyes. Letting the wind do his thing. I enjoyed it.
Harry.
Was the first thing on my mind. I should never let him go. I never missed him so much in this year. And now at this moment where i need him the most. I dont have him near me ..
'' ROMY ROMY WHERE'S HARRY? ''.
'' WHY ARE YOU ALL BY YOURSELF ?''.
'' ARE YOU AND HARRY TOGETHER? ''.
Fuck.. the paps found me. Well harry should find out soon where i am. But i need to escape. I ignored the paps and runned in the hotel. Finding a way out. I runned towards my room grabbed my stuff and got a taxi to nowhere. How did they find me this soon ?
'miss where do you want to go?', the driver asked.
'is there a house at the beach near here ?', i asked.
'yeah it is, there is a house, it stands there for 10 years and nobody lives there'.
'take me there', there was no way they could find me now.
He stopped infront of a beautiful house, my mouth was open from it. How could nobody live here?
'how could nobody live here?', i asked him.
'Two people, where full in love with each other, one day he cheated and their paradise in this house was over.. the woman never returned even when he apologised million times', he said looking towards the house.
'what happened to the woman?'.
'She killed herself in a car accident'.
i thanked him grabbed my suitcase and walked inside. This. is. amazing.
I could spend my time here.
Harry's POV
I re-read the news paper again and again. They asked about where i was ?
We arrived at the hotel and sprinted towards the desk.
'miss miss ? where is Romy Mcray ?', Liam asked, i was too shocked, so i was unable to talk.
The woman behind the desk sighed.
'Paps where following her, i saw her running down the hall, i think she was going to her room, she later returned with her suitcase, i think.. she left.. she didn't say a word, or checked out here..', i interupped her.
'so we can see her room ?', i asked.
'i can't let you guys in.. i don't even know if you know her'', she said looking at all of us.
'listen... she was my girlfriend', i looked her deeply in the eyes.
'room 3505..', she gave me the key and i thanked her. We runned towards her room and stopped infront of it. I looked at the guys.. they all nodded so they stayed outside. I walked in and everything wasn't cleaned yet. I saw the duvets all over the place.
I walked over to the drawers.. nothing in there..
The closet... nothing..
Under the bed... nothing..
Where could i find anything ? Then it hit me.. the bathroom.
I walked towards the bathroom and there i saw it.
Pills all over the floor.. i know what this meant... she took a overdosis.. she's going to die earlier now. I grabbed the box of pills and sit with my back to the bath. Tears were escaping my eyes. How could she take an overdosis and leave all her pills here. I know she wanted to be alone, but i just can't let her die alone.
I looked around the bathroom and saw a book. I grabbed it and on the front stood:
ROMY'S DAIRY
I know you can't read in dairies but i just couldn't help it.
july 19 ( today ) 2012
WHY AM I THE ONE WHO HAS CANCER
a tear escaped my eye again. How could she write things like this.. I looked further in it. And there it was.
July 9 2012
i love Harry.
She loved me .... she loved me...
Why didn't she say a word. I read the page further:
I hate him, but i still love him. I shouldn't have let him go.
It was the biggest mistake of my life. But i don't want to die infront of his eyes.
I'm afraid for it. So i decided i'm gonna leave the love of my life and my 4 best friends'
lots of love..... Romy
i cried... gosh i never cried so much about a girl before.
I saw dried tears on the page.. she must have been crying the night before. I shouldn't have kissed Lisa.. i'm so messed up right now.
Romy's POV
i layed down on the couch, i felt weaker and weaker.
Why did i take so much pills ? Because i want to die. alone and peaceful.
I love harry..
i love harry...
I still thought in my head. Tears escaped my eye because he's never going to find me again.
Why did i leave ? WHY ? Why did i let him go... he still loved me i could see it in his eyes...
I walked towards the kitchen grabbed a knife and then walked towards the balcony.. I looked at the beach and put the knife on my throat. This was the end ?
I cried even harder and harder. I put the knife down and looked at my wrist. I didn't look and took the knife against it.. Hard and deep i want the cut.
I was cutting myself everywhere and at one moment i dropped the knife.. this is the end.
I fell on the ground. I heard a door open and shut and footsteps running towards me.
'' ROMY ? '' .
'' ROMY ?''. i heard someone screaming and crying. The next thing i knew the person was holding me.
I looked trough my eyes who it was.
Harry ?
or someone else ?
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