Fairy Tail One-Shots

4- Gone (Gajevy)

AN: Written in June of 2016. Haha guys, remember when we all thought Gajeel might be gone for good?

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Gajeel was gone, and she was left only with memories.

Thoughts of him filled her mind constantly, of those last moments when his tear-filled eyes locked with hers. Of his smile, those little smirks he would send to her and the genuine grins he gave her when it was just the two of them, and of the smile on his face as he disappeared from her sight. She remembered so much, not wanting to forget anything about the man she loved who was taken from her too soon.

And it was his touch she remembered most, soft and gentle whenever he would hold her bare body against his. His red eyes gazing at her and drinking her in as if she were something beautiful and gorgeous each time he tucked a strand of bed-head hair behind her ear in the early morning.

"A family... happiness..."

She knew as a child abandoned by his father figure that Gajeel had had a rough time of things, had gotten into trouble without meaning to and was pulled into a guild that prided itself on its tough image rather than how much the members cared about each other. It was why he was so gruff, or at least seemed that way to those who didn't know him.

To her, it was no excuse for what he did to her when they were enemies, but it did explain so much. He had to prove himself to feel any sort of validation, had no support for his emotions or actions unless they could benefit the guild. His attack on her, and Jet, and Droy was one of those acts, though it was the one that haunted him, made him first start considering his own actions. The depression he suffered started then, his want to end it all and get out of the shit cycle he was a part of.

Levy's hands traced over the star patterned sheets, remembering all the times he had endangered himself for her sake. He had truly not cared if he died, she knew, and he only confirmed that with his words to Bradman. He might have tried to play it off, but she knew better. For all the growth he had done, he still wanted the pain of his past to go away in the only way he thought it fully could, though the fact he wanted to live on with her helped her know he was healing from the pain of his memories. If only he could have experienced all the happiness and love he deserved by her side instead of the relationship cut short so much earlier than it had to be. He was so close to having all that he had wanted...

Her stomach swelled slightly below her once loose camisole, the two lives created by her and Gajeel's love already wanting to make their presence known by showing. She smiled softly at that, though it was also pained by the fact her two children would grow up without even knowing the wonderful man that was their father. She hadn't told the guild yet about her and Gajeel's unborn children, having been avoiding returning there since she knew the pity on their faces would be like a dagger right to her heart. Lucy knew, Lily knew, and that was that. Perhaps it would be best for her to leave it that way until she was ready to face the world again, face a world without Gajeel. One without him by her side for forever...