I have to forgive myself to forgive the people that gave me thoughts that I am not enough that I can't do it and most of all that I am not worth it
I have to forgive myself for letting that monster inside me, the monster that spreads dark cloud in my head,
the monster that gave voices in my head saying that I am not enough, saying that it's all my fault and I just make everything worst
I have to forgive that monster for making me starve myself,
That monster who wants me to punish myself because I made things worst,
I have to forgive myself for letting that monster for making me hurt myself to feel physical pain,
I have to forgive myself for letting that monster who gave me labels that I get tired thinking of,
I have to forgive myself for letting that monster make me push people that I love because I fed him from my pain,
I have to forgive myself for letting that monster for losing myself in these endless negative thoughts.
I have to forgive myself for letting that monster ruin the sunshine in me.
I have to forgive myself for letting that monster that makes me want not to forgive myself.
I have to forgive myself for letting that monster break my confidence and trust to others
That monster who cut me so deep that made me bleed and made be bathe in the blood of my own thoughts
I have to forgive myself and let go that monster
I have to forgive the people who gave me pain without them knowing it
I have to forgive my mind for having these thoughts
and I have to forgive myself for suffering too much
I have to forgive everything so that I can heal
for that Monster is only made by man
for that Monster is evil
I should forgive myself for letting that monster in
I should kill that monster before it kills me
I am a human capable of healing, love, hope, trust and forgiveness
and that monster is nothing when I am strong, when I am the light of my own.
