Ardent Declarations of Love

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Crystal Sapphire Emerald Stone

There are worst things than feeling alone.
Things like being with someone,
and still, feeling alone.

That is exactly what I felt
when I'm with Trenton,
back in the days
when we were still together.

He saw me, met me,
wanted me, liked me,
chased me, got me,
had me, got bored of me,
left me, and lastly, he broke me.

That is basically
what Trenton Walker did to me.
And I can't help but compare him to Seth.

And it's ironic, really.
For I realized that I have loved the one
who did nothing but hurt me,
while I ignored and crashed,
and maybe even killed the one
who truly loved me, deeply.

Looking back,
our memories warm me up from the inside.
But they also tear me apart.

Living a life without Seth,
should be easy now.
But how can anyone expect me to live
without feeling the guilt,
without hearing the voice inside my head
that kept on saying, insisting,
that I'm the one who had killed him?

And what hurts even more
is the fact that we just kind of ended.
I didn't even had the chance to apologize,
mend his broken heart,
and say goodbye for the last time.

With all those pile of papers that was found,
after he died.
When I've read what he felt towards me,
towards the moments
that had been transpired between us-
when I broke his heart
and the rest that he had undergone-
I still find it hard to believe,
that Seth Tyler Olsen loved me, so deeply.

I miss him, I miss us.
The us we were before
all of it came tumbling down.
The us that was in the beginning.
The us that we saw potential in.

Wiping off my angry tears,
I turn on to the next page and continue to read,
his hand written letter of affection.

_._.._._.._._

You begin each day,
like the sun that shines
across the skies.
You're the very sight
that turns my frown,
upsidedown.

You end each day,
like the moon and the stars
as torches of light.
Illuminating
and warming my heart
through the rest of the night.

You're the light in my dark.
If not by my side
or within my sight,
I'm feeling down.
Feeling only half of what I am,
when you're not around.

It thrills me more,
once you smile.
It tugs the corners of my heart,
from where you are.

You're on my mind
all the time.
I'll never get enough.
Always craving for your touch,
your scent,
the sound of your voice,
your laugh.

Even in my dreams,
you make me perceive
the sweet definition
of transcendent bliss.

Hope dawn in me,
that you'd someday
respond with a yes
and with pure glee.
As we finally
found a safe haven
in each other's arms-
between you and me.

Side by side,
we'll always be.
If I'm given a chance,
I'll prove to you
for eternity.

Seth

_._.._._.._._

The piece of paper I'm weakly holding
mere seconds ago,
slip through my fingers.
And I broke down all over again.

Oh Seth.
What have I done?
And didn't do?

I ruined what could possibly be,
the greatest thing in the world.

I couldn't take this anymore.
I seriously needed to stop reading this,
this piece of him.

But my fingers started to move
on their own accord.
They turned on to the next page
as if it has a mind of their own.

Seems like getting over him is a lesson,
I have yet to learn.