Ardent Declarations of Love

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Veronica Stafford

Staring straight ahead,
a memory struck my head. . .

I dialed a familiar number,
and I started to wonder,
'why would you even bother?'
But after quite sometime,
on the other side of the line,
you finally answered.

As soon as laughter filled my ears,
realization hit me like a brick.
For I knew instantly,
that this time, it's no longer a trick.

You're just as busy,
just like everyone else who claims to be,
when I needed someone to really be there for me.

But it wouldn't hurt to try
and so I asked, if we could meet.
But you said you can't, just as I expected.

Hope turns into despair,
it seems to me that no one cares.
No one's here to listen and be aware,
about my struggles that I couldn't bare.

Suddenly,
a knock sounded through the door,
and it alerts my very core.

I swiftly rise,
and it's you I found on the other side,
making me leap with surprise.

Oh Seth.

Up until now,
I still remember that moment, somehow.

When you showed that you care,
for my welfare.
When you made sure to help,
in making me feel whole again.

And most importantly,
even if you can't, you still went.
You are a true friend until the end.

But sometimes, I wonder
if you know how much you mean to me.

I wonder if I should take your hand in mine,
or if I should pull you in for an embrace.

I wonder if I should pen a letter,
or just tell you bluntly.

I have spoken of it once or twice,
but I wonder if I had said to much,
or if I had spoken too little.

I wonder if you would mistake my silence
for nonchalance or fear.

If only I had the choice,
then I would be with you.
But then again,
I wonder if you feel the same.

I wonder if you would squeeze my hand,
or if you would return the embrace.

I wonder if you would respond to my letter,
or speak to me after my revelation.

We have talked about it once or twice,
but I wonder what exactly you would want to tell me
and how you would say it.

I wonder if there are times
that you want to speak out as well,
but you choose to remain quiet instead.

I wonder if you feel how I feel,
and if you would someday reciprocate it.

After all,
you can make choices too.

Someone nudge me gently,
and I awake from my trance.

Amanda, my friend,
asked me if I were even listening
to what she'd been saying.

I just nod,
even though I were not.

Just then,
a flicker of movement caught my eye.

Across from where me and Amanda stood,
Seth is heading towards Sapphire,
who is already seated on a bench.

Upon reaching her, they talk for awhile
then after quite sometime,
Sapphire began to lean in closer to Seth,
as if she was about to whisper something to his ear.

A feeling of jealousy,
find its way to my heart.

I quickly excused myself
before the urge to drag Seth,
away from Sapph became too strong
that I can no longer resist in doing so.

I turned around and walk away.
Fighting, not to look back.