Samantha

Chapter Ten

2 weeks later.

Sam's POV

I woke up at 6:30 O'clock, a timing that I didn't use to as my wake up time. But I did, I couldn't sleep properly at all. It wasn't just the thoughts that kept me up most of the night, it was also my best friend who disappeared all of a sudden.

Through the night, I've been trying to call Ellie but her phone only directs me to the voicemail. I turned into a worrywart when no one said they know nothing about her and it killed me to know that I couldn't communicate with her in any mean.

My condition was nowhere near good. I keep reminding myself, though, that some days were worse than these ones. At the meantime, everything seemed wrong except for one thing. I didn't feel the urge to drink, nor to take any dosage of drugs. In this short time and I seem to be letting go of them, something I never thought I'd be able to do.

After few minutes of total annoyance at my lack of sleep, I stepped into  the shower seeking refresh. Fifteen minutes weren't that enough for me but I had to get out if I didn't want to get a detention for being 'always' late for class.

I walked into my room again and my eyes landed on my purse unintentionally. As on cue, I was already having a debate with my mind on whether to take a tablet or not.

Just for an emergency. You wouldn't want what happened in front of Jack and the doctors to happen again

I slowly made my way to the purse, with hesitation, but I did anyway. Once I reached the purse, I took a tablet and was about to devour it into my mouth when it hit me.  

What if Jake knew about the drugs ? What if he saw me taking one in, and what if he let go of me because of this ?

I sighed and swallowed the tablet deep in my throat, preventing it from going back up. I put the reminder back in my purse and went off to pick an outfit.

In all honesty, I would never care what to wear for school, and never have been. This was the last thing my mind would wander to so I just picked up something randomly and slipped it on, before doing my hair.

 After finishing my poor breakfast, I stepped out of the house into the fresh air. It stroke my hair, making it fly to the back behind me, leaving enough space for breeze to hit my exposed neck.

It's surprising to feel this refreshed and happy. Half of the whole happiness feeling was about meeting Ellie. She would never miss school. Yes, she was carefree and funny, but she still loved school and thought of it as the reason of every bright future and whatnot.

 When I entered the school, I was confused whether to take another capsule or not but then I thought It wouldn't hurt. I tucked one inside my mouth, and of course, without gaining anyone's attention. It was a gum to anyone if they asked. No one would ask anyway.

On alacritous, I rushed to where we used to meet every morning. Ellie, was the only one in my mind. Unfortunately, luck wasn't exactly helping me as she was nowhere to be found. I then made my way and reached for Nina and the rest, who apparently were shocked to see me.

"Hey?", I said looking at all of them with a slight frown appearing on my forehead matching my inquire.

 "Hey". Nina's eyes never met mine and her reply dripped with nervousness. 

There was nothing but silence that flooded the place and everyone seemed focusing on their own world. No one was laughing, no one was chatting, there was completely nothing but lame silence. Something was wrong. Again.