Remembering Sunday

Chapter One

    "You're finishing with me?"

    My eyes filled with tears as I questioned what I naively thought would never happen. A lump caught in my throat, I swallowed it down and spoke again.

    "But I thought you loved me, you told me and I believed you. Please, please don't do this."

    Thomas ran his hand through his dark hair, sighing. He had done that alot since he arrived at my house fifteen minutes ago. His gaze lay on the tribal carpet on the living room floor, again he sighed as a hot tear slid down my cheek.

    "It's...It's just not working anymore," he said as he wrung his hands together, "we want different things, my parents want different things for me."

    His parents. All he ever did was obey their every command when it came to our relationship.

    "You can't see Meghann more than once a week. "

    "No public displays of affection, especially at youth club."

    "We don't like how she dresses, it's not modest enough."

    I could hear their patronising voices in my head as he spoke. Was this their idea? Did they tell him to end it? My mind rushed with the questions I knew would go unanswered.

    "Please Thomas, give it a chance. We can work it out, please." I begged in vain, I reached out to take his hand but it was jerked away as soon as my touch grazed it. A choked sob escaped my lips.

    Thomas wiped his eyes and coughed. There was a moment's silence broken only by my quiet sobbing. I couldn't comprehend what exactly was happening. We had just spent a great summer together, trips to the beach, the cinema, I had even taken him to see my pride and joy; my young horse Jake. I didn't understand why he suddenly didn't want me after nine months.

    "I can't stay any longer, Meghann. I'm sorry it had to end like this but it's for the best. We can still be friends and maybe one day we can fix this."

    He stood up, crossing the room to the ajar door. I rose from my seat, tears filling my eyes as I realised this was it. I wiped my eyes with the sleeve of my pony club hoodie as I followed him to the front door. Thomas turned as he stepped out into the cool summer evening, he weakly smiled and stepped forward as if offering a hug but at the last minute regretted his move and pulled back.

    "Goodbye, Meghann." he meakly mumbled, before turning and making his way to his dad's awaiting car. The older man popped the child lock and glanced my way as the door opened. I can only describe his look as one of satisfaction.

    I blinked hard, trying to stop another on set of tears especially in front of that man, as I turned back into my house and closed the door. I slid to the floor and let the heavy tears I had been holding in fall. My mum came through from the kitchen, having heard most of the conversation from the adjacent room. She placed her arm around my shoulders as they shook with sobs and gently squeezed.

    "Shh, shh. It's alright, come let's get you into bed and you can sleep on it tonight." She cooed as she helped me too my feet and led me to my small bedroom at the end of the hall.

    "You get changed for bed and I'll go make some tea and get your Kalms." Mum suggested as she left the room.

    I began to change, throwing my used clothes onto my desk chair as I pulled on a baggy American football shirt I got last year and pyjama shorts. I kept having to stop to calm myself down but as each minute passed another wave of hurt flooded over me. Once changed I sat on the edge on my bed, hugging my Tweety Pie teddy to my chest; a long time comfort and companion, I was given the Tweety Pie teddy for my first Christmas and he hadn't left my bed since. I was crying into his soft yellow chest when mum came in, armed with milky tea in my favourite mug and two Kalms tablets. She placed the items on my bedside table and sat beside me, pulling me into a hug.

    "We can talk about it when you're ready, just for tonight get some rest." She said, rubbing my back.

    I sniffed and wiped my tired eyes. She handed me the tablets and I quickly knocked them back with a gulp of tea. Mum let me go and I lay my head on my pillows, as she pulled the duvet over me and kissed my forehead. I heard her foot steps leave the room with a whispered goodnight and I let the darkness envelope me into it's comforting embrace, as I slowly drifted off to sleep.

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Phew! First chapter finished, what do you think? I'm sorry it had to begin on such a depressing note but I promise things will begin to look up in due time. Leave a comment and tell me what you think so far!

If anyone is wondering what Kalms are, they are herbal tablets that soothe and comfort in times of distress.

~qirlandanikon x