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Chapter 2

~Un-edited~

Saturday Morning: 

~Niall's POV~

I woke up to the smell of breakfast being made. Obviously, it wasn't Louis because every one knows he doesn't cook.

He said he only cooked once for someone and it was someone he once loved. 

I got out of bed and put my pants on. Then I went stumbling down the stairs to see who it was. 

Harry heard me come down stairs and looked over his shoulder, "Good Morning Niall!!" He exclaimed dropping what he was doing to hug me. 

When he pulled me into a hug I was thrown back because I wasn't expecting it. No one hugged me beside my family. I slowly hugged the boy back and smiled. 

"You cook??" I asked pointing to the food. 

He nodded and chuckled, "Yeah I do." 

"That's good to know. Maybe now, we can have some decent food.." I mumbled. 

"I wouldn't say that too loudly if I were you.." He warned while going back to what he was previousy doing. 

"Why's that?" 

"Umm..nevermind.." 

"What??" 

"I said nothing.." 

I could tell by his tone he was getting a bit upset so I stopped all together. 

"I'll be right back.." Harry said turning the stove off and walked outside.

I watched him walk outside and let out a deep sigh. 

Louis came prancing downstairs in his jeggings and black tee, "Where's Harry?" 

"He went outside.." 

"What happened?" Louis said walking towards the door. 

"I don't know.." I replied while shrugging my shoulders. 

~Harry's POV~ 

I actually took Louis advice into consideration and quite frankly it's helping I pulled my sleeve up a bit and looked at the now fading cuts. I was relaxed until I heard the door open, I quickly pulled my sleeve down and tried to relax once again. But then I saw Louis and sighed in relief.

"What's wrong Harry? Your not like your self.." Louis said rubbing my back. 

"I know and i'm sorry.."

" 'Bout what kitten?" 

"I can't control myself anymore..and it frustrates me.." I replied clinching my fist but winced because it hurt my wrist. 

"Harry..what's wrong? You can tell me anything and you know that!" Louis said trying to look me in the eyes.

"I know..I just feel like I can't trust myself with anything..and I hate myself for it.." I rested my head on my hand which made my sleeve go down a bit. 

Louis let his eyes fall to my arm and he sighed with worried eyes, "Why?" 

I looked at the boy, "Why what?" I then realized what he was looking at and quickly moved my arm back down to my side. 

"Why are you doing this to yourself?" Lous asked again with more concern in his voice. 

"Louis..I told you I can't control myself.." I tried to calm myself back down because I was starting to get upset. 

"Yes, you can Harry." He said placing his hand on top of mine. 

"I promised myself I wouldn't get mad at neither you or Niall..but I let myself down.." I glanced at Louis who was looking at me straight in the eyes. "Anyways..I need to get back to cooking.." I spoke up trying to get away from Louis.