Hundred Letters ✒ koeun

💌 herin

to: herin

we miss you so much herin-ah, we miss your english, especially your accent that we can't even understand haha, it's funny tho because simply even your english, we can't understand it, and your accent is a more hassle too but that's okay right? because we still manage to talk to you hahahaha,
"do you have c-ups? it's kinda late, could you try find a tin?" that reminds me during mmc days again haha, and now i remember your burnt brownies, this will be weird but me and the girls sometimes can still smell it, we can smell it in the dorm! like it's weird right? because you baked that on that culinary school but we can smell it in the dorm! (you didn't baked another burnt brownies in the dorm remember? because everyone was checking up on the time every minute especially lami because she said she don't want a burnt brownie tho your burnt brownies during mmc was iconic because leeteuk oppa says it taste the best which is really not a bluff, it tasted so good!)
but it's really weird right?
maybe our noses are looking for the smell of your burnt brownies, just like how we still look for you every morning just to see there's no herin seo in here anymore

herin-ah, we miss you so much, i miss you so much,
and i'm sorry for these tear stains on the paper, it's just my eyes can't stop from letting out these sad liquids, i still can't believe that as the time comes when we debut,
you are not here with us to reach our dreams anymore.

i know everything that has happened is for a reason and we all have accepted it, i've accepted it, but maybe it's still this hard for us because we still hold on to that memory of us performing together, that one day it will happen again, that we can step on the stage, holding each other's hand, smiling, confident and proud once we face the crowd, that we will be dancing in our tears once we have the success of our first win.

it's still hard for us because we build this dream together but now we will be having it, without you in it.

it's just, it still hurt herin-ah, we love you so much

i'm writing you this not because i am convincing you to comeback to us and together bring our dream to vision, no i don't want that, not now that i know you already found the real meaning of content and happiness by your family and friends there, and i want to remind you that no matter what path you choose, the girls and i will support and will be happy for you as long as it is for the sake of seeing your cute dimples when you smile and the happiness filling your eyes.

i am writing you this to let you know that we are still here for you, your trainee friends/family/sisters that will forever treasure you, that no matter what happen, even if you are worlds away and miles apart from us, even if days continue to pass, you will always be in our hearts,

you are still our herin-ah.
my sweet dongsaeng that is so beautiful, so kind, so soft and so adorable.
the girl that have deep dimples as deep as her love for the people around her, the girl that has a very lovely voice who always sings with a disney vibe in it.
you will always be the herin seo we love and we spent our trainee days with.

please don't forget about us herin-ah, even if you already forgot how to write hangul or speak korean words or even the taste of korean food, just please don't forget about us, don't forget about me,

because we will never forget you

please stay healthy and always take care of yourself okay?

i love you, we love you ♡

ps. i wonder if this letter could really reach you, but i hope it will, i'll be jealous of it, if only me and the girls can be this letter, so that we can have a chance to see you, hahaha okay what am i even saying, i'm being silly again.

-koeun eonnie