Hundred Letters ✒ koeun

💌 lami

to: lami

finally, hina and ningning stopped screaming, i heard jungyeon eonnie scolding the three of you for being so loud ha! （＾ｖ＾）that's what you get from being annoying lol just kidding hahaha

anyway can i finally start writing the real content of this letter that i wanna give to you?

yeah i probably need to start before you destroy the door (because i know, you are still not giving up just to know what i am writing)
and of course before hina come in here, but it's really not a problem, she's not that annoying unlike you hahahaha
(okay i was just joking again, but jokes are half meant so :"))

lami-yah,
you are the youngest among the rest of us, i've known you ever since you are still just a little kid. remember the first time we met? i really can't believe that you'll be a trainee like me, i mean you're so young, i'm also young that time when sm casted me and i passed their audition but still you are younger than me

wanna know a secret?

i really admire you, back then and up until now (even tho YOU ARE REALLY A PAIN IN THE HEAD, everyone knows that, it's not just me okay?)
anyway, i admire you not just because you are beautiful, pretty, adorable and charming (oh my god, i can already see you grinning when you read this) but yeah it's true, you are really a beautiful girl, my child,
(that's because i made pretty dumplings, wait-- what? i'm not your biological mother, oh so okay, she made a really pretty dumpling, the credits is hers instead)
but yeah as what i am saying it's not just because of that,
i admire you because ever since i met you, i was amazed from the fact that even at an early age you already had the courage to bring yourself to the path that you really want, for deciding to take both paths of training as an actress and idol at the same time

when i saw you that time, i told myself that you are still a child that needed to be protected and as i'm older to you, i told my self that it will be my job

i was so scared for you because once the training started i know things will be really hard.
at an early age,
we're away from our family, we're learning things and doing things that sometimes get too harsh on us, we do a lot of practice, practice and practice, just as how the days pass, it's the routine that continue every time

i admire you because from starting at a very young age, you managed to do all these things that we're doing in training, at a very young age you're strong enough to fight the presented hardships already given to you,
at a very young age, giving up never came to your mind and simply to you

and you know what? i am so proud of you lami-yah,

you might be stubborn, annoying and still immature sometimes, no one can complain to me and tell me that you are not an amazing girl, because you are, (if there is, then i'll ask them to fight me)

i saw you grow up here in this system with me and you know what?
you are one of the reasons why i'm being strong and not giving up even tho i still don't know when will we finally get to see the real vision of our dream.
every time i see you smiling, laughing and still jolly even tho we are all tired from the practice especially you guys, because you're still in school, you're lame jokes that i told you to stop telling me but that's the one which is really a joke because i just hate to admit that i love your lame jokes, your hugs, just simply you clinging to me (because you always hate to admit that you miss your mom haha)
all of that ,
gives me comfort every time i'm in the verge of giving up,
you and the girls, other than my family are my strength and light as i walk this still unknown path

why am i telling you this? because i woke up in the middle of the night yesterday, and i heard you crying in your room.
of course i know it's you, i know the difference of your cry and ningning's cry

i really wanna ask you why, but i didn't bother because i know your having your exams today and i don't want to interrupt and mess with your clear mind, you need concentration for your exams,

i still don't know the reason why, but what ever it is, please don't be afraid to approach us, your eonnies, especially me, we will always listen okay? koeun eonnie will always listen.

if you're getting tired because of school and all these stuffs, please don't pressure and stress yourself so much, you're still young and still have a lot of time to spent your youth, do enjoy it okay? even if you're dealing with training and school, please don't forget that you are still a teenager who needs to live a teenage life.

as i told you, i know you are a strong girl, you really are, but even though i know you are, i know you still need a shoulder to lean on,

and please remember that we are here, i am here,

please don't give up lami-ah, we all promise that together we will reach our dream right? and we will, i'm here for you, your jungyeon, yiyang , hina and ningning eonnie are here for you,

your family, even though you barely talk to them, their love and support are always with you,

so don't lose hope, let's just wait a little bit, i know people are already waiting to see you so please be stronger! fighting!

ps. also, please always remember that i love you, ko-eomma will always love you ♡

-ko-eomma