Bittersweet {Discontinued}

[03] The Walk of Shame

Lisa POV

I let myself fall slightly behind the three girls as they showed me around. I focused more on trying to connect where to go than on any of them. My expressions were more focused and cold than I normally would be. But, I didn't care. I didn't care if I was more seemingly cold as long as I knew where I needed to be and how to get there. I honestly didn't care how the other girls would view me, and I didn't expect to make many friends either. I just needed to get that higher education... I needed to be able to support myself...

The three girls showed me around the campus and I nodded, silent the whole time. I just took it all in slowly. "So, your homeroom should be with Chaeng but it's across the hall from Jisoo and me," Jennie spoke, her eyes focused on me. She hadn't even looked at me since this morning when I made that joke. It was a spur of the moment and I spoke before I even thought. God, I hate myself for saying that. "So if you need anything, you can just head to the restroom and peek in the class. We'll likely notice you and head out to help in any way we can." She continued and I only focused on her eyes. Her eyes were hickory and as rich as the earth's soil; stained with the color of hot chocolate on a cold, winter night that wraps around you like a blanket; engulfs you in its warmth and makes you feel at home. I couldn't help but feel like I was back home at Thailand and I cracked a small smile, letting my eyes flutter closed. My cheeks burnt slightly and I let my hair fall more, now covering my face.

"Thank you, Jennie-unnie..." I smiled happily under my hair and bowed respectfully, making my awkwardness blend in more.

"Wow, she does speak." Jisoo teased and lightly touched Jennie's arm. "She's been silent for an hour while I told her about all the rooms and the minute you speak, she talks to you." Jennie laughed herself and I saw her cheeks light up in a slight pink coloration. I couldn't help but smile more as I pushed the hair away from my face and looked at her admiringly once again. Her ash brown hair looked perfect as she ran her fingers through it and brushed it back more. I let in a small gasp; she honestly took my breath away. After a moment of silence, I let myself speak again.

"S-sorry... I was focusing on where to go and how to get there..." I whispered, my eyes taking a long time to shift away from Jennie's beauty and move to Jisoo. I looked at her with hesitant eyes and smiled softly. "Uh, thank you unnies... I'll head to class now." I mumbled nervously and bowed, I turned my back to them slowly, looking over my shoulder at Jennie one last time before I headed into what would be my homeroom. I slowly sat down and smiled to myself, burying my face in my arms. My mind ran wild as I once again thought of her features. Why was she on my mind like this? Her lips were a pale pink that reminded me of a rosebud. The top lip was thinner, but not too thin, and it had a natural cupid's bow; the bottom one was larger and plusher. I thought of her wonderful lips and my mind then thought of what they'd feel like on mine.

Lalisa what are you doing? What are you thinking... You're straight... You can admire girls... You can think their cute but stop... You can't think about her like this... I lectured myself as I hid my face more. Fucking hell... Lisa... You can't do this... You cannot do this... Don't get attached... You know what happens when you get attached... You're straight and she's only nice because she has to be. She's the welcoming committee... It's her job...  I gritted my teeth and slowly let my head rise from the desk I had chosen. I saw the teacher looking at me with a rather strange look. He seemed... Familiar oddly.

I furrowed my brow at him as Chaeng sat next to me. "Lisa? You okay?" She asked with concern in her voice. She was genuine in her voice and it was very adorable. I smiled at her slowly and nodded.

"Oh yeah, I'm good. It's just... So different here compared to home..." I lied and looked away.

"I've never been to Thailand... Would you feel better to talk about it?" She asked me with a grin that puffed up her cheeks more which made me smile.

"It's a beautiful place..." I began and looked at the ground. "The beaches themselves are well known. The waters are so pure and beautiful... And the buildings, the architecture was astonishing..." I stopped for a second as I smiled brightly, the images of my home taking over my mind, Jennie leaving it.

"Students please calm down, we shall begin class now." A new voice said and I let my smile drop into an emotionless stare. I looked up to the teacher and thought long and hard. I listened to him as he began the first day's introductions. He explained the class and how everything worked and I just focused on him. I looked at the board and read his name: Professor Charoensuk. I looked at him and at his name. The Thai name sent me home once again. But this time, I was remembering my dream. That odd and rather an insane dream. What did that mean? Why did that dream even happen? I questioned myself and grabbed my bangs in my hand, making a fist and slightly pulling them.

"Yah Lisa..." I heard Chaeng whisper to me and I swiftly released my bangs and looked at her in confusion. "You okay?" Why was this girl always so worried for me? I met her yesterday and she's... She's... Being so kind. Way too kind... Something is up. No one is this kind to me... Not even my friends back home... They would never ask me if I was okay DURING a lesson.

I nodded to her and gave a false smile, closing my eyes while doing so. I hoped to god that she believed it. That it seemed real. I slowly let my eyes open as I looked at the girl before me. She nodded enthusiastically and looked forward once again. She must have believed it... I let my eyes move back to the teacher and analyzed him. I listened carefully and noticed that he did, in fact, have a Thai accent to his Korean speech. Maybe I'm in his homeroom just because he's Thai and could help me out? Yeah, that seems logical...

The class blurred by, mostly due to me zoning out and trying to decipher my dream last night. In the end, I just chalked it up to me missing Thailand and feeling like I'm leaving my mom and stepdad defenseless there. The next class was just as uneventful: I sat in the back next to the window and ignored everyone and everything. I didn't plan on getting straight A's anyways. As lunch swung around, I left the class and looked around the huge room cluelessly. I had no idea where to go.

"Yah Lalisa!" A voice called and I let my eyes dart to the source. I saw Chaeng sitting with a bright smile and waving her hands in the air. Right next to her was Jisoo devouring some chicken and Jennie who was staring at the table... emotionless? She looked like a blank slate. I took in a deep breath and moved to them and sat next to Chaeng and Jennie, across from Jisoo. Chaeng was on my left, Jennie on my right. "How's your first day so far?"

I looked at the kind soul who asked and once again plastered on a smile. "Uneventful mostly. I just hope to get used to this place and... Stop missing home." I admitted, Jennie's blank stare changing as soon as I spoke. She looked up at me then at Chaeng and sighed in defeat. Is she okay? What's wrong? I let my whole demeanor change from defensive to worried as I analyzed her. This does not seem like the girl I met yesterday.

"You'll get used to it here," Chaeng spoke and placed her hand atop of mine. "Just as I did."

"Chae Young calm yourself down." Jisoo laughed as she took another bite of chicken. "Possessive already is a bad sign." She winked at her. What was she talking about? Possessive? Of who? I let my eyes land on Jisoo who was now wiggling her eyebrows at the girl to my left.

What was happening here? I know these girls aren't your normal high school girls but... This is very odd. I don't know what's happening with them? I let myself sigh as I pull my hand from Chaeng. "I uh... I'm gonna go get food..." I mumble and head over to get food. I let myself look back as I stood in line and I made eye contact with Jennie who looked at me with a longing and sorry look. I didn't understand; I don't understand. As I let my eyes linger on her, I saw her look at Chaeng then once again down at the table.