The Gang Leader's Pet {WillDip}

Update?

Hey! So all my books are going to be on hold for a bit. So here's my LIFE update, that you don't need to read.

About a month ago, I got assaulted for being part of the LGBTQ community, it took 15 minutes for a teacher to even care that someone was legit pinning me to the ground and swinging left and right.

My anxiety (Both social and mental) have spiked a lot over the past few months due to the voices I hear, so I don't let anyone touch me.

What voices? And what diagnosis do I have for them? I have no known diagnosis yet due to the fact this is a new psychologist I have and she's the first one to know about them. But basically, I get voices in my head at times and they don't necessarily go away. They come when I'm emotionally vulnerable. Angry? They're there. Suicidal? They're there. Sad? Happy? Upset? They're always there, just not as realizable some times. The voices play a big aspect in my life from who I talk to, to what I'm doing, and even to what time I go to bed.

Let's say I'm angry at someone, about 30 images flash into my head about hurting someone severely. Suicidal? Every imaginable way to die. Happy? Every way that my mood could be altered. Those are the image parts of the voices, but the actual voices convince me to do the image that comes to mind.

Then there's the depression. It's been down pouring a shit load. There are times where I just want to curl up into a ball and cry. There are times where I can't even do anything because my hands are shaking so much; and although this IS a side effect to my mental state of depression, I also have been diagnosed with ADHD and ADD, meaning I have an EXTREMELY hard time focusing and when I do focus, it isn't for long, and in order for ME to function, I have to have something to fidget with.

So basically, my life has been fucked up a lot lately and teachers hate my guts and have made a pact to ruin my life and try to fail me this year.

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