Don't wanna be big 3

prom

Tomorrow is prom! OMG! I can't wait. My dress is done and I just... I just can't wait for everyone go see me in it!

I walked into my room and looked at it. A navy blue, ankle length dress that had no sleeves but thick straps and had see through lines on the top of the chest and the calves. It had a thin belt going around the waist as a decoration and it makes my shape look good.

I decided I was going to curl my hair all over. I wanted it like that. I had bought myself some what and navy blue heels. They went perfect with my dress.

I put dirty blonde highlights in my hair and out it in a bunch of little plats. It would be all curly when I took it down tomorrow. It was Friday and I had just got home from school an hour ago. I got a call from Wayne and he's taking me to prom.

I looked in the mirror and I laughed at my hair. I then looked at my body. I only had on my bra and panties. I don't like being fat. It's gotten me nowhere. The guys I loved are either dead or gone. I hate myself. Why can't I be skinny and beautiful? Why can't I just have a normal life?

I cried and threw up. I wanted all the food I ate out of me. I then looked at my stomach. It was still big even though it felt empty. This pissed me off, so I threw up again and again and so on until there was nothing left. I washed my mouth out and looked in the mirror. I felt as if I've lost five pounds, but I probably lost two.

I just sat on the floor crying. I heard my dad come in the house down stairs. I quickly got myself together and went to bed.

WHEN I WOKE UP THIS MORNIN...

My alarm went off and I jumped up quick. I took a shower did the resr of my hygiene thing. I put on some sweats and put on some lip gloss. I decided to go with my dad to get a manni peddi.

We went and then we went out to eat. I ordered the crunchy lightly cooked green beans with scallops and a medium rare steak with a side of sweat potato fries and an iced tea. My dad ordered a fried chicken salad and a bear.

We ate and talked. By the time we got home, it was 12:00. I did myself a facial and sat and watched tv until about three. Prom doesn't start until eight, so I can lolly gag.

I decided to start getting things together around three. I peeled the face mask off and lightly washed my face with soap and water. I then decided on what make-up I would wear. Fuchsia lipstick, mascara, black eyeliner and tan eye shadow for eye makeup, and concealer and foundation. I decided I was going all out. I decided on silver jewelry to go with the dress. That's a good match if you ask me.

We already took all our exams last month, so I'm not going to school the rest of the week. Monday will be all. I'm quitting my job at foot locker and I'm going to focus on fashion until next year. I can make and sell some clothes on eBay.

It was not about six. I decided to start doing the small stuff first. I took a shower, put on lotion, and some body spray for a strawberry scent. I then took down my hair. That took my forever because I have a lot of hair and I had a lot of skinny plats.

It's now Seven. I put on a bra, a girdle with a thong at the back, and my dress. I put my hair up and put my shoes on. I out on my jewelry and some perfume. I out on my make-up and grabbed my navy blue clutch. I walked down stairs in time to see Wayne with his tux on. He gave me my flower thingy and I put it in and gave him his.

"I'm so proud of you. Going to yo first prom."My mom was here. ugh! My dad kept snapping pictures and my mom was holding Champion and he was cooing.

We got in his limo and drove to the night club where the prom was being held. I walked in with Wayne and EVERYBODY looked at us. There were girls with all kinds of dresses on.