stay - namjin

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Namjoon leaned against Seokjin hopelessly.

He felt powerless.

Like there was nothing he could do about the damn voices.

The voices that were controlling him.

The voices that had driven almost everyone away from him.

Nothing seemed to help.

He had tried to get treatment when he was a teenager, and that only worked for about a year.

And his condition seemed to be getting worse.

Gradually, every week, his episodes would increase.

Until they become too frequent that-

He has little to no control over his own mind.

---

Jin sat next to Namjoon on the couch, stroking his hair.

He was under the impression that Namjoon was asleep.

"I love you so much. I wish you knew that." Jin whispered.

Even though Namjoon was half asleep, he heard what Jin said clearly.

But it made him feel even worse.

Why would someone like Jin waste his time on me?

"Uh- Jin... I heard that..."

Jin felt heat rush to his face and he started a string of apologies.

"I-it's fine..."

Namjoon stood up and walked out the door.

Jin had no idea where he was going, this was his apartment.

He held his head in his hands and he honestly felt like crying.

And that's what he did.

He held his head down and silently cried as he walked.

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Jin: namjoon?

Jin: i'm sorry

Jin: i hope you're not, like, homophobic or anything...

Jin: i'll stop texting you if it makes you uncomfortable

Jin: im really sorry

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