stay - namjin

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Jin: namjoon i'm seriously surprised you were able to deal with me

Namjoon had just gotten Jin through a depressive period, and that was something Jin normally had to do alone.

Namjoon: why? all i had to do was calm you down enough to get you to sleep...

Jin smirked.

Namjoon didn't know that every time he said "I love you" Jin could hear it.

Jin: is that all you did?

Namjoon: yes?

Jin: are you sure that you didn't say anything as you left me?

Namjoon felt heat rush to his cheeks and a nervous feeling form in his stomach.

Namjoon: wdym?

Jin: what do i mean?

Namjoon: what?

Jin: what?

Namjoon sighed with relief.

Jin was just being stupid, as usual.

Jin: i have a question...

Namjoon: ???

Jin: have you been okay? i was worried that i was being too stressful...

Namjoon: i've only had one dissociation episode and one hallucination this month

Jin: so you've been making progress?

Namjoon: yeah, i guess...

In reality, when Namjoon cut more, he had less hallucinations.

He probably would have been making progress if he could actually afford the therapist Jin believed that he was going to.

His arms were running out of room, he was going to have to start on his hips and stomach soon.

Jin: that's amazing! i'm so happy for you...

Namjoon felt the guilt build up in his chest.

He was basically lying to Jin.

And it made him feel even worse than he already did.