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𝙲𝙰𝙼𝙸𝙻𝙰 𝙿𝙾𝚅

𝐈𝐓 𝐇𝐀𝐃 𝐁𝐄𝐄𝐍 𝐒𝐈𝐗 𝐖𝐄𝐄𝐊𝐒 since Rebecca was taken but it feels like years have gone by. I have trouble sleeping at night my mind racing with thoughts on where Rebecca could possibly be. We informed Rebecca's school that she will no longer be attending so, they wouldn't question why she hasn't been going. Everyday we find Lexi sitting at Rebecca's bedroom door looking upset that her big sister is no longer here. There are no words to describe the pain that I'm feeling everyday is becoming a struggle. Matthew attempts to keep himself more composed but I know he's in pain as well. I'm taken away from my thoughts when my publicist begins to speak.

"So when you are asked about Rebecca you respond with that she is currently spending time with her dad and that you do not feel comfortable discussing this topic any further" she tells me for the second time

I nod my head mindlessly taking in what she is saying but not giving her my full attention. I hear pen scribbles on notebook paper as I stare out the window of the conference room. It may be a sunny day which usually equates with joy but the sun could be out all year around and nothing would change the fact that my days will never fully be joyful. My publicist taps her pen on the table.

"We're working on averting the attention in articles from Rebecca to the new music you are working on and of course we're keeping Alexandra out of the public eye they don't even know she exists really." she says confidently recapping the meeting before getting up and leaving the room thanking me for my time.

I sigh heavily running my hand through my hair wanting to desperately go home to my boyfriend and Lexi. I get up from the gray chair, leaving the room, and make my way downstairs to the awaiting car that will take me back home. I haven't been in Rebecca's room since the incident I know it will only make me breakdown into a pool of tears. But the sparkly yellow letters spelling out her name on the tells me to open it, Matthew and Lexi are in our room down the hall. I walked a few steps away from what used to be rebecca's room, Before turning turning around, A part of me was telling me to open the door and go in and cry, but the other part of me was saying go to Matthews and I's room and spend time with Lexi before they take her too. I was taken back from my thought as I heard a high pitched cry coming from down the hall. I quickly walked down the hall back to Matthew and I's room as I walked into the room and saw Lexi crying in Matthew's arms. I was sometimes jealous of the bond they had, because when Lexi was eight months until she was almost one I was on tour and I never had the time to bond with her since she wasn't in the public eye like Rebecca was, but there was times when Matthew would bring Lexi out to some tour dates. I really owe the semi bond Lexi and I had to Rebecca without her Lexi would treat me like a stranger until Rebecca would tell her I was her mom. It is the worst feeling in the world. I snapped myself out of my thoughts and I looked at Matthew.

"What Happened?" I asked scared something had happened to her.

"Nothing, she just woke up from a nap and I left her alone for a bit" He said slowly rocking the toddler in his arms.

I sat next to Matthew on the bed and when I did Lexi started crying more, I didn't know if was because of me or because she missed Rebecca. Matthew had almost calmed Lexi down, then his phone rang and it scared her and she started crying again. Matthew stood up and gave Lexi to me making her cry even more as he walked out of the room to take his call, I tried to rock her to calm her down a bit but it didn't work. I thought for a second before I started singing Youth by Shawn Mendes to her as she slowly stopped crying. After I had finished the song she looked up at me with her glossy brown eyes trying to speak but ended up making out weird noises.