Every day and every night, I cried myself to sleep. I can't believed all of these things were true...
Like... How can you accept all of these when you didn't strictly say something to her, and the fact that...
....She still mean the world to you
And...
You still love her so much...
I tried to hold on and don't care what they say... So I asked Grace again for a help.
"What did Angie really wanted nowadays?"
She replied
"Oh she really wanted the japanese comic called "aishiteimasu" volume 81, she already owned that book but her mom took it from her..."
I asked again
"Where can I get them?"
She replied
"Local book store usually have it... And by the way thats an explicit comic, so I recommend you to buy it with your mother."
I went to the book store to buy it, and I succeed without any parents...
...Then I stupidly texted to Angie that I've got that book, while I supposed to make it a secret...
Then later I received a huge amounts of precaution to stop... Such as
"Stop Jake! We don't want a Roby - Jasmine controversy again"
"It's all for your feelings, please stop..."
"We don't want you to be hurt, just stop."
I'm so confused of what happened, until I asked Roby
"What the fuck really happened?"
He replied
"Because we're going to the Paisa beach in 2 days, we're warning you to stop, we know what is really going to happened."
I said
"What? Really you should tell me everything!"
He replied
"Okay. Angie don't allow me to tell this to you but I'll tell it. You know Angie's ex from the Springfield Junior High, yeah Angie and him promised since they're separated, they will not date anyone else until the day they're back again, which is when they're on Senior High School..."
After some emotional talks, I'm planning something.
Roby, Shana, Angie and others will come to my house tomorrow and I said to Angie
"Can you come earlier? I need to say something to you"
Then she said
"Okay :) I'll come at 8...."
Suddenly I kept think of it... Until I got a headache...
I don't know what to do...
I don't know how she'd react...
I'm really confused, then I managed to say it now with text message...
"Angie, I got so tired and my headache is getting worse, so I'll let you know now...
I know everything, Roby told me everything, the promises, your ex, I know everything now.
And to be really honest, I really love you and you'll always be a part of me, but if you have a promise, you should keep it...
I'd rather be alone and see you happy with him...
Please don't be mad at me, I'm just saying
Thank you for everything...."
The headache wont stop because she didn't read it for like 7 hours while usually she replied seconds after I send them, so I thought she saw the notifications and got mad....
It's almost 8.00 pm and I'm waiting for my idol Mariah Carey to performed live on today show, so I'm waiting in front of my streaming computer as the headache got worse...
Suddenly in 8:00 pm... She replied...
"It's okay Jake I'm not angry..."
"I know you loved me since the day I received that secret love letter"
"To be really honest, I never found someone like you... You're the most caring person on the world, more than anybody else, even my ex..."
I bursted out of tears and magically my headache gone in a second... I'm so happy that it didn't end harsh like Jasmine and Roby's, and we chatted until like 1 A.M in the morning... And when she said she wanted to sleep, we stopped and I said
"Goodnight My Angel <3"
And she replied...
"Goodnight Jake : )"
