Hours after Roby and Shana were together, I got so many precaution to not showing my feelings to Angie... The first one came from Shaniya. She said
"Are you sure you wanted to do that?"
Then I said
"Yeah, why?"
Then she replied
"Nothing... But do you know that she still loves her ex?"
Since then I felt that there's secret that people hid from me. But with the confidence I have left, I said to Shaniya
"Then I'll make her love me more than her ex..."
The day after Roby and Shana were officially together, we went to the mall to watch some movies.
Then I said to Roby
"A complete look-a-like with our previous double date... But one of us already succeeded"
Then Roby said
"C'mon mate, you'll get her heart"
And then I regained my confidences.
Then I chat with also one of Angie's friend, Dira.
And then she said
"Please don't be mad or angry, I'm just telling you a little secret you should know"
I said
"What is it?"
She said
"I asked Angie what will she do if Jake showed his feelings to her, then she said "Of course no!"... Sorry Jake but that's the truth"
I was completely broken down that time...
...So all of my attempts are useless?
Not to mention that she said the word "Of course"
Not long after that... Macks texted me
"No hard feelings Jake... Uggh how to say it..."
I replied
"Tell me, It's about how Angie said that she didn't want to be my girl friend right?"
He replied
"Yes... Please stay strong... Angie told me that morning with Peefah about this thing..."
Then I violently text him back and we had some capslock texts but then he said
"Letting go ain't easy, it's just exceedingly hurtful" ...
...which is Mariah Carey's lyric...
Well... It's fucking hurtful though...
