Forced To love

chapter 10

Jayden POV

let me go first manara said.
Look I know we don't know each other and that this,she gestured to the both of us,whatever we are doing is for fun to you which is okay,I expected it to be just like that,I really appreciate,I know its hard being with me when you could be with other girls that are not plain as you said i am,I get it honestly but soon this 4months would be over and we would never have to see each other again,I know I shouldn't hope for anything or even try to let any feelings grow between us which yet is still okay,I know you fuck around and its your lifestyle so I won't hound you if you go out today and take a girl home,I mean giving you my virginity was my decision,I don't expect you to stop all that because of a night that meant nothing to you,you can do whatever you want,bring a girl home,do whatever,just live your life and let me live mine,let's just stop whatever we are doing,I know couples are sopposed to do this but we ain't really a couple,we both know,so it's not right and fair that we continue,else I might start having feelings and at the end I'll be the one heartbroken so let's just exist till the months run out.

I just stared at her saying nothing,I was too shocked at the things have just heard to even say a word,I get that I fuck around and I break peoples heart but hearing her say she doesn't want to have any feelings for me,or thinks that me taking her virginity meant nothing to me makes me really hurt,I just don't know what to do with this lady in front of me,she's too innocent ,she's driving me crazy,whatever we've done has been amazing,I have never even kissed a girl the way u kissed her,I don't even kiss the girls I fuck with for more than 2minutes,but her,I just couldn't stop,the way our lips moved in synchronization,she's so fragile and soft and innocent and even if I don't know her,I like her,I want something more than just co existing,I have never liked or felt anything for a woman before but she is different and she is turning me into something I don't know,I like being around her,I like the kind of guy I am around her,I can't let her think all these so I did the only thing I could think of,I moved from my position on the couche and kissed her deeply,putting my all,the strange feeling I felt each time I kissed her was back again even stronger,I liked her,I needed her,she was like a drug that I can't stoo taking,so addictive,I want her to be mine even though she is legally but I want more,I want to know her,in and out, I think am obsessed with someone I don't know.

She pulled away from the kiss with teary eyes.

Don't do that jayden,I told you if I get attached and start having feeling for you,it wouldn't end well,you'll leave and I'll only end up getting hurt so please stop giving me heart melting kisses that turns me into a idiot without brains she sobbed.

Oh God,manara will be the end of me,how can i make her see things from my side,I don't think I have it in me to hurt her,sure have hurt many girl but not her.

I hugged her close to myself as she sobbed again,I raised her face up and cleaned her eyes,kissing her again,then pulled back.
Manara, you don't know me,hell I don't even know me since you came into my life,I don't want any other girl, I won't hurt you manara,I like you a lot and I really want us to get to know each other and work things out,I want you to get to know the real me,I like this,whatever we have,I want it to last for a Long time,I want you to come to my room anytime you feel not okay,I like this person I am around you,you have changed me and you don't even know it,the girls I bring her before us happens I don't even do anything with them,I just couldn't,even though we didn't do anything then,just trust me okay,let's make this work,and I know in 4months time we both agreed on splitting with divorce but let's not worry about that,let's focus on now,on this moment and see where life takes us...you don't have to feel anything for me if you don't Want to,and trust me,yesterday meant everything to me,am honoured you decided to give me the pleasure of helping you loose your virginuty,I respect you a lot,I have never ever made love to a Virgin before and yesterday was wonderful, I liked it,I don't want to fuck with other girls,I want us to be together.

She looked at me with her amazing blue mesmerizing eyes filled with tears and nodded.
So you're saying let's be friends with benefits before we get divorced?

Am saying let's live our life without worry,whatever we do let's accept it and be proud of it,yeah let's be friends with benefits but I don't want to get to know you just because of that,I genuinely want to know you manara.

Okay then let's get to know each other.

Kiss me manara.

She held my face with her soft small hands and started kissing me so passionately I kissed back immediately asking for entrance which she gave,I explored her mouth with my tongue earning a moan from her,God her moan drives me crazy,everything about her drives me crazy,am getting addicted to her and am not sure how to feel about it,if it was a good thing or a bad thing.

She pulled away and smiled her beautiful heart stopping smile,it was perfection.
For the remaining evening we talked about everything and anything,we got to know little things like her favourite food which is pancakes and Maple syrup,her favourite colour which is grey,I got to know her likes and dislikes,about her family,friends,everything...soon manara started to close her eyes.

Come on let's go to the room,I carried her and she let out a gasp,I chuckled at her,she just blushed.

You're cute when you blush.

Oh so you're saying am only cute when I blush and am not cute in general she said smiling lightly.

No,absolutely not,you're beautiful all the time blue.

Why do you call me blue?
And you said that's your favourite colour.

It is my new favourite colour,it became my fav colour since I saw your eyes,their beautiful.

She blushed again, thanks.

We got to my room and she stood up.

What?

Nothing it's just,this is your..

its our room now manara,come,let's sleep okay.

She smiled and nodded,she is so beautiful and innocent,her smile is contagious.

She layed on the bed and turned to face me,closing her eyes.

I just stared at her,her lashes were touches her bottom ones,so beautiful,her face is so appropriately formed,her full plump lips that's now swollen,I restrained from touching her face,she was just so preety its almost hard to believe.
I drawed her close seeing as she was already fast asleep, she put her hand round me and her face on my chest,I could feel her steady breathing,she's so beautiful I want to just kiss her ...I had never let a woman sleep at my side before but somehow manara is here and I don't want to let her go...I love having her at my side.
Soon sleep took over my senses.

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