I'm used to it now

I'm used to it now,
I'm used to all your poundings,
I'm used to all your surroundings,
I'm choking, but you never cared,
You're laughing, but I'm scared,
Sometimes I wish I don't have to hide,
Sometimes I wish you could feel my inside,
I swear I tried to fit in when you coerced,
but you always told me that I'm cursed,
I don't care if you want to rule the world,
Just stop calling me sick and absurd,
I saw you climbed one by one all your dreams,
But I bet you never heard any of my screams,
I'm used to all your winnings,
I'm used to this way of living,
I'm used to it now.