of heartbreaks and royalty

loved you once, now never

iii.

i don't know how many times
i've said this
the first time we fought, yes
but i am saying it once again

i clearly have no reasons to love you anymore
no, not a single reason
but there are reasons why I've loved you

i love you, in the past
never in the future

that spotify playlist of yours
that you told me, "about your biggest regret"
it's good, the songs you picked
you clearly have a great taste
despite how much you hated my music
but i loved yours

i am not religious
i do so much sins
but one thing im sure is
god made you so well
he poured so much greatness in you
maybe you lacked in height
but He sure spilled too much
too much, of perfection
and i will never blame Him for it
because i loved it

it's nice to know that you're a huge cuddler
because i know i will feel less lonely
at least
because i know your arms would be
somewhere near me
and i can quickly fall all over into your arms
and oh
the human warmth
your kind of bittersweet warmth
you're always warm and
i'm always cold
we used to complete each other
not anymore
and i loved that

in the end
we both know the truth
we will never work out
our love was built out of
your pity and my effort
walked the same path
now we go opposite ways
and maybe
we never actually fell in love
but i loved you.