My every day life and the randomness

Life suck

When, you really think of yourself as the right person and thrust is you not. It just complicated, because when you do think that other people feel bad about it but you have no slightly clue of what you actually do. You don't even know yourself do such horrible things until another friend or person told you and it just want to make you rethink about life. About what you have done up until now.

Around the past month I don't know if am ok or not. I observe the situation of other people. See how they emotion go around between each other whether it is bad or not and I understand which side is good and which side is bad. I don't really know if am mature or just started begin a person who see life as nothing more than people shouting around or helping each other or fighting.

I see them doing that thing and in my mind, I analysis every thing that just happened and started thinking about it and compare it with me. With my life.
It so funny how I can understand and be obsessive about others action that I have know idea on how to deal with my own problem.

I just don't seem to recognize the detail of myself and how I act toward my best friends, my friends and families. I just can't figure out how my life was to being with. Everything about my life is suck. Am fat, wearing glasses and brace, am not good at anything. I don't know how my future going to come out but I guess it will be pretty shaky.

But then again all of those things doesn't matter because it was you. It was me and I have to fought my way out of it. I need to change, I can still be myself and change the small detail of it one by one and in the end only god know how will I turn out because I still have finish high school. Junior high in the second year and I already think of too much stuff. It's scared me sometime to think about it, but there always something that happened.

No matter how boring your life is, there always many things happened that you didn't even know it have happened. For example surprise test. Light out while studying. Going into a stupid fight with friend. Eat pizza. Watch another episode of your anime when it just uploaded. Pooping at school.

Well my friend ok with it. She say that she poop like it was usual thing to do at school as much as you do at home. I just can't, it feel weird when you do it at school and I don't like the idea of it either. However when the cramp really got worst, I have no choice but to use it.

Anyway, Let not talking about p**p. Well I have nothing more to say but be your self and use the toilet if it really bad.

See you next time, bye :)