The Rant Book

Life

Life's a little bit harder than what I want it to be.  My little boy is due in 2 months, between August 23rd and September 1st. I have a job. Uhm.. Yeah alot has happened...  I just went to a memorial dinner yesterday..  My bestfriend of almost 6 years, her dad died on the 3rd.. They were/are like a second family to me and it hurts..  I'll be 18 in 5 months so that's a plus. I'll be an adult and be able to make my own decisions. I'll more than likely move out of my parents house. I'm learning to drive so I'm going to get a car. I'm buying baby things. Aries Orion is his name by the way.  He's my sweet little boy <3

Sadly I'm in a bit of a depressed state right now.  I've been trying to get over it but it's not really working. I've kinda been like this since March.. It's a long story but I can't get happy again for the life of me. During ultrasounds when I can see the baby moving I feel a little better but then they go and tell me something to worry me every single time.  I just can't wait for him to be born and then for my birthday. Hopefully everything will be better after that..  Hopefully everything will be better soon...