The Rant Book

Oof

Okay so I just realized I never explained anything with me and Lucas.  Long story short he moved in with his mom and completely changed. He was mentally and emotionally abusive. I wasn't allowed to have friends, everything was my fault somehow,  he always wanted sex, he started drinking. So June 28th of last year my mom made us break up.  He dated a girl I thought he cheated with 2 days after we broke up.  Then a week later my "bestfriend" Hallie.  He's been with SEVERAL people since then but no matter who he's with still texts me saying he wants to be with me??? Well somehow he found out I was pregnant. He text me again and Ben asked him to leave me alone. Very nicely actually. And he just completely went off talking bad about my parents and brother and went as far to say he hopes I have a miscarriage. He claims to be on drugs now,  it wouldn't surprise me.  His mom kicked him out. He just turned 18 on the 8th but I haven't spoken to him in a very long time. If I ever see him again it's not going to be a very good thing because of what he said about my baby. I felt like that was more a threat than anything and I will do anything to protect my baby. I have a better life without him. Alot goes on and it gets tough sometimes but it's better than being depressed constantly and wondering why im not good enough and what I'm going to do next to screw up. So if you've seen any of my old posts about him,  I did have very deep feelings for him but I haven't had those feelings for well over a year now. I doubt Lucas and I could ever even be friends again. So yeah,  that's the story behind that.