Tadaima [Sugawara x reader]

Chapter 3

"Ayase? Concentrate on your lessons!" I heard sensei's voice kind of like through a thick fog. I was sure to get a detention after spacing out for the fifth time during this week, but I didn't even care anymore. My mind was blank, just like an empty sheet of paper.

It was hard to believe that this silver haired boy, who was sitting right in front of me, was still out of my reach. If I tried talking to him, I'd be found out in an instant. I bet mom is pulling strings even on my class' sensei, dammit.

Just then, I felt a poke to my shoulder and lifted up my head.. to see Sugawara facing me with a worried expression.

Oh no.

My head blank, I abruptly shook off his hand in an aggressive manner, making Sugawara's eyes widen.

"Is everything alright?" He asked, but I couldn't answer. I didn't have the right to speak to him.

That's why, I lowered my head and started staring at my notebook. I'm glad Sugawara didn't try to make me talk for I couldn't bear it. It was already hard enough as it was.

~

"Hey, everyone," I said to the girls as I walked into the gym.

All day, I couldn't stop thinking about Sugawara and blaming myself. I didn't even have to ignore him; he left me alone, didn't try to approach me as if he knew.

"I'd give up about anything to talk to him right now," I thought while tying my shoelaces.

Just then, an unfamiliar voice echoed through the walls.

"Is Y/N Ayase here?"

I instantly turned my head over to the guy and saw.. Daichi, I think that's his name. Yeah, we're in the same class, but we never actually talk.

And then it struck me. He's friends with Sugawara, is that why he's here?

"Y/N-chan, come on!" Yui, our captain, encouraged me as I sat on the floor, dumbstruck.

"Coming," I shook my head and said.

I made my way over to Yui and Daichi, standing at the door sill.

"Someone wanted me to give you this," my classmate pulled out a white envelope out of his pocket and stretched his hand to me.

"Who did?"

"You'll have to find that out for yourself," he smiled as I took the paper from him. "I'll be going now. Have a good practice."

At the corner of my eye I saw Yui wave Daichi and blush a light shade of pink, but I didn't give it much thought.
What worried me was this envelope right on front of me. Could this be from him?

"No, no way." I thought as I put it in my bag and ran off to my team to warm up.

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"The sunset ir really pretty tonight, isn't it?" Yui's eyes sparkled while we two were locking up the gym, everybody else already gone home.

"Yeah," I agreed, not even lifting up my head to actually look at it.

"I never thought there were grey sunsets," the captain said. "The way that rosy pink blends with navy grey is so cool! Hold on, I must take a picture."

Grey, huh?

Right after, my thoughts went back to Sugawara and I remembered the envelope I put in my bag before practice.

"I shouldn't do this, but.." I contemplated at the white paper with "Y/N" written on the corner.

I knew that if I considered this any longer, I'd probably would throw the envelope into the dust bin, so I ripped it open as fast as I could and started reading.

Tonight, 8pm, at the school's entrance.
Sugawara

I blinked a few times to confirm if this was it. Seriously? Why put such a tiny message in an envelope? To tell the truth, I was a little confused since I was expecting a letter because of the it. No, not disappointed, just confused.

"7:52.." I muttered to myself as I checked the time. I have eight minutes. But do I really want to go? I feel like I can't face him right now, to tell the truth.

"What'cha reading?" Yui bent over to me in excitement and curiosity. "Whoa, is this a love letter?"

"Huh?"

"Turn it over."

"Ayase-san,
first of all, I'm really sorry if I did something wrong.
When I saw your eyes this morning, I figured it'd be best not to disturb you, yet I couldn't help but worry. I had a hunch something was not right, that's why I asked Daichi to bring this letter to you.
When I first started writing, there were so many things I wanted to say, but now my mind is completely blank, to be honest.."

I read the sentences one by one as my eyes started to sparkle from a few tears.
I could've sworn Sugawara smiled sadly while writing this.

"I know we may not know each other, but for a couple of split seconds when we were together, I felt a strange connection.. Okay, I'm even embarrassed to write this, haha.
Anyways, once again, I'm sorry if did something wrong. Please, let me see you and make it right."

"Ah, so there's the letter." I thought to myself as I wiped off the flowing tears with both of my hands.