Reality strikes me as I step into my office.
"Alex you're not going to believe this shit when I tell you!"
"Wait what! What's up?"she says
"Oh, like I said, you're not going to believe me, so I might as well not tell you.." I say as I twiddle with my hair and playfully turn my back to her
"No, oh my god tell me, you have to tell me now! Even if don't I believe you.. I'll pretend that I do." She joked
"Okay" I calmly say "I just fucking met Harry Styles!" I say loud enough to where only she could hear
"No fucking way! No fucking way you whore!" She exclaimed
"Ugh" I scoffed
"Yes way bitch! Now how am I supposed to get my work done without thinking about how sexy his voice was? He was so polite and tall and ugh!"
"Where did you meet him?"
"At a coffee shop"
"Since when do you ever stop for coffee?"
"Since today, and probably forever if I get to see him again." I say
"I want all of the details!"
"No way! There are none."
"Of course there are, how can there not be?!" she exclaimed
"I said there are none! Now go, I have work to do and so do you." I promptly stated, my inner boss kicking in
She rolled her eyes and sassily made her way back to her desk.
I chuckled at her response and started on my work.
I wonder if that was her pretending?
Alex, fully known as Alex Montez, is my head accountant. She is also my very best friend. We went to high school and college together and she moved all the way here to Los Angelos with me to help and be a part of my business. I can trust her with the funds of this company just as much as I trust her with my life.
That girl has been through and seen so much with me, I never thought that in my future, I would have someone so loyal I'm my life.
For she, is the only one that I can fully trust.
Breaking my concentration, I think about what I just said
"Now how am I supposed to get my work done without thinking about how sexy his voice was? He was so polite and tall and ugh!"
I cringe at myself.
How dare I say such a thing, as if I only think of him for his physical appearance? What kind of fan would I be?! What kind of person would I be?! I have been in love with Harry ever since I were a teenager. I can't believe I'm even doing this. I'm so disappointed in my own thoughts.
He was sweet enough to help you clean up the mess that you caused after you bumped into him and this is all you see him for?
I snap out of my thoughts as I notice the pain that I've caused in my wrist from digging my nails into it, start to grow.
I'm a mess. I'm a fucking mess. No wonder no one can put up with me. Hell, I can't even put up with myself.
I don't know why I have to make such a big deal out of stuff when I'm thinking about it. I just get so angry at myself when I don't do things right or say things right. Why can't I be who I want to be? Why can't I just do what I intend to do?
It's because that's not me. But they don't have to know that and neither do I.
"Ms. Adams I have Mrs. Pinnock on the phone to see when she can schedule a consultation." My assistant interrupts my thoughts through the speaker.
Thank god.
"Yes tell her Wednesday 2:00pm sharp. And please bring me the fax for the new landscape renovations in Sacramento from the fax machine." I say
I am doing pretty well for myself. I've got absolutely no reason to complain.. no reason to be upset...
I start my work and work at a fast pace without interrupting myself as if I didn't meet Harry Styles less than an hour ago.
Yep that's me pushing the good moments away, only to focus on my job because that, I assume, is what will satisfy me in the end.
"Janine, give me the updates on the two properties on Ingrid Lane, see if they are still up for lease. And bring me those fax papers! How long does it take to get them off of the machine and bring them? It's been over thirty minutes, I've got so much done already and I'm ready for them! So would you hurry up." I say through the speaker
"Yes ma'am, I'm still on the phone trying to negotiate the date with Mrs. Pinnock." she responds
"What the hell. Transfer me her line." I say slightly annoyed
"Yes ma'am and I'm sorry about the fax papers"
"Don't apologize just do it, you're wasting time by apologizing!" I yell
"Hello this is Sabrina Adams, founder and owner of Property Palace, I understand that there is some miscommunication regarding the date and time of your consultation?" I speak through the telephone. "Yes ma'am that is the only booking that I have left open for Wednesday this week, the rest are already filled until five o'clock, in which we are closed by then. Your options are choosing another date for this week, which we only have Thursday open now, or you can settle for the recommended time because it will be much quicker to get you in. Okay, alright, thank you so much see you then." I say in a posh business tone
"How hard was that?" I mumble
Business done at its finest.
A part of me wants to think that this is all I need and all I will ever need, but a part of me deep down just wants so much more spiritually.
Sometimes when I'm lying in bed, I think, so this is it, this is your highest peek at life, your happiest moments are and have already happened.
After these thoughts I pray..
God please don't let this be it. I don't want to seem ungrateful for what I have, but this just can't be it. There has to be so much more, I,I- can't imagine life getting any more boring than this, so please don't let this be my high. I've only ever wanted to do right for you god and I will continue to do so. Please answer me.
After I finally get the fax papers that I've been asking for, I decide to rap up for the day, since it's after business hours.
As I'm walking to the elevator I get a text message from an unknown number that says "hey:)"
The smiley face just makes the text message obnoxiously creepy so I just don't respond. As I enter my car, my phone starts to ring and the 'unknown number' pops up on the screen, I answer it anyways, can't hurt anything right?
"Hello" I say more curiously than I intended to.
"Hi, it's Harry, am I speaking with Sabrina?"
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