The Reuion

Lost Memory

ALECS POV

"I...I thought...I thought you are in Seattle?" He asked me irretated and I pulled back to look at him. "Mag...no...no." I only said and Magnus looked confused around. "He is awake." Someone suddenly yelled and before I could say anything else I saw at least 5 doctors rushing in. "Mr. You have to get out. We need to make check ups." A nurse said and pulled me away from Magnus who looked really scared. "It will be okay, Mags. I'm outside." I sniffed and the nurse dragged me out. When I was out of the room I took in a shaky breath and Max ran to me. "Alec...what's wrong? We saw the doctors running down the hallway." He said worried and I smiled weakly at him. Magnus is awake...I should be happy. I should be relieved but why did it feel like I lost everything? "He woke up." I answered with tears running down my cheek and Max let out a relieved breath. "He lost his memory." I added and Max relieved expression dropped. "Wh...what? How much?" He ask me and I looked at him with a lost look in my eyes. "I don't know...he thought I'm in Seattle." I answered and Max looked at me with a blank expression. "No matter what he  remembers or not he will always love you and he always did." Max told me and I smiled sadly. "Maybe...maybe not. I lost everything and it is all my fault." I answered and Max shook his head. "No. I was so hard on you the whole time but now I see it. I understand you, Alec and none of this your fault. You had to go away for yourself and you had to move on. You had all right to be mad at him and what you did was maybe not the best but you had to do it for you. All I know is that you have never been a selfish person but some times you have to be selfish and do what's best for you. This is not your fault and never think like that again." Max told me with a serious voice and I smiled at him before I pulled him in for a hug. "Why is it so unfair?" I sobbed and it that moment I just lost it. I had no idea how much Magnus knew and what not but only to think that he lost the memories of all these years made me sad. What if he didn't remember he loved me? "I know it hurts. It will be okay...I promise you." Max said softly and I sobbed in his shoulder while he hugged me tightly. I felt like I was 18 again and Magnus just told me he didn't feel the same for me. "We will figure this out. He will remember you and he always loved you anyway he was just too blind to realize it." Max added and I pulled back from the hug when reality hit me. "V...Vici." I only said and Max looked at me with wide eyes. "She...she doesn't know...oh...shit." He breathed and I realized that if I and Magnus would really made it...Vici would be alone. I couldn't do that...I couldn't ruin her life like that. "We have to tell her what happened." Max said and I looked around to look for Izzy but she was no where. "Where is Izzy?" I asked and Max smiled weakly at me. "She went outside. She needed fresh air...you should talk to her." Max answered and I nodded. "I'll look after her...go and tell Magnus I'll be back as soon as I can and I'll take cloths from his place with me." I explained and Max nodded. "And Max...no word about his suicide...it was an accident." I told him and Max nodded again. I didn't want Magnus to know anything about all this because I was scared that Magnus would hate me. I walked out of the hospital to see that it stopped to rain and the sun was shining. I looked around and tried to find Izzy when I saw her with Simon talking. She said something and Simon started to cry then he pulled her in a tight hug. I looked at her and something told me she didn't tell him about Magnus accident. I walked slowly to them and Simon pulled back when he saw me. He whipped his tears away and Izzy looked at me guiltily. "Hei...could we talk?" I asked her and she nodded weakly. "Magnus is awake...the doctors are checking on him." I explained her and she let out a happy sob. "He doesn't remember, Iz." I added and she looked at me shocked. "Wh...what?" She stuttered and Simon laid a hand around her waist. "I don't know...he thought I'm in Seattle." I sniffed and Izzy looked at me with a painful face. "We have to talk." She suddenly said and I knew this wasn't about Magnus. "Simon...could you go and bring me a coffee?" She asked him and Simon smiled at her. "Yeah...anything else?" He asked and Izzy shook her head. "I love you." He said softly and pressed a kiss on her cheek. "I love you too." She smiled and Simon walked away. "What is it, Iz? If it is about what you said earlier it is okay...I deserved it." I said and Izzy shook her head. "No...it isn't about that you also don't deserve what I said because it wasn't true. I will always love you and you will always be my brother." She told me and I smiled at her but I saw the sadness in her eyes. "Could we sit down?" She asked me and I nodded then we sat down on the bench. "Izzy, whatever is bothering you...you can tell me." I encouraged her and she nodded while she bit her lips. "Remember your 17 birthday...I was so drunken?" She ask me and I gave her a confused look but nodded. "Well...I and Simon...we...we had a onenightstand there." She explained and I looked at her even more confused. "Why is this important for me to know?" I asked her and she sighed. "After we spend that night I felt different so I made a pregnancy test." She continued and I looked at her with a interested look. She couldn't have been pregnant I would have know that. "I was pregant...1 month." She added and I gasp but then I thought again...where is the child. "Magnus found out because he saw me buying that test. He...he said he would help me...he said it will be okay." She talked and I was scared about what she would tell me. "You went through a rough time and I didn't want to bother you so Magnus and I kept it as a secret. But...when...I was 2 months pregant I wanted to tell you. I was 16 and scared of being a mum...I didn't know what to do." She started to cry and I wrapped my arms around her. "Magnus was there for me and he told me I could do that but he also told me I should talk with you. That night...the night I wanted to tell you...we got that call...and I...I..." She couldn't talk anymore and broke down in tears. I wasn't there for her when she needed me the most...but he was. I was so busy with my own problems that I never thought that she would have one too. "I...I lost my baby." She sobbed and I started to cry too because I couldn't believe she went through this. "I'm so sorry, Izzy. I'm sorry that I wasn't there for you." I said guiltily and she pulled back from the hug. "Till today Magnus was the only one who knew about it. He was there for me when I was so close to just run away and the thought of losing him now was too much. I shouldn't have said that to you but I was just so scared...I couldn't lose him too." She cried and I nodded. "It's okay, Izzy. Does...does Simon know?" I asked her carefull and she nodded. "I told me only now...I couldn't get myslelf to tell it him earlier. I was so scared that he would hate me." She sniffed and I looked at her confused. "Why should he hate you?" I asked her and tears ran down her cheek. "I should have been strong...I should have taken better care of the baby." She sobbed and I hugged here again. How could she think that this was her fault? This was no ones fault. "Izzy, this isn't your fault. You couldn't have done anything better." I comforted her and she cried in my chest. "I will never leave you again, I promise." I told her and she pulled back from the hug. "But...Riley...don't you and him..." "Riley is gone and I guess he won't come back again...I hurt him." I answered and Izzy sniffed. "You want me to talk with him?" She ask me and I thought about it. I was happy with Riley and he was happy with me. Maybe now if Magnus would remember anything it would be the best if I and Riley would stay togheter. Also I had to keep my promise to him. I promised him I would help him with that and I won't let him down after all that happened. "I'll talk to him...but can you at least make him stay?" I asked her and she nodded.    "I'll go with Simon and also get some cloths for Magnus. I bet he wants to see you now." She told me and I nodded. I know it would hurt to see him but this time I promised to not leave him again. I could get over this one way or another. I knew now I was stronger than this and if I got over it once I would get over it twice. We said our goodbye and Simon hugged Izzy tightly when he came back with the coffee. I was glad that she had Simon and I knew he was the right one for her. I walked back inside the hospital to Magnus room and saw that the doctors walked out. Max still waited oustide and talked with Aden. I alwas imagined this Aden guy totally different than he actually was but ge seemed nice. Max would be happy and so would be all the other ones so why shouldn't I be happy too. "Max, I'll go inside and just talk with him...I need to know what he remembers." I told him and Max stopped to talk with Aden. How stupid was it of me? I had no idea what Magnus rememberd and still wanted to keep Riley warm? What for an ass was I? But now it was time for me to find out what for a Magnus I would meet now. The Magnus I left 5 years ago or the Magnus I met 2 days ago...//

tbc sorry for the long wait. I didn't feel well and needed a break also I wasn't at home yesterday but here is a new chapter 💙💙💙💙💙