Aesthetic [Kim Seokjin]

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Song of the chapter : Intoxicated - The Cab

16. Seokjin and how he sees the world

Seokjin

'What was that?' I asked myself. Blurred rooms and doorways whizzed past me as Yoonji guided me through the company, my heart beating fastly.

I almost kissed her! Where did that come from?

Did she want to kiss me too? Is her heart beating as fast as mine? Shit what if she didn't?

I didn't notice that we weren't alone anymore when I felt someone nudging me.

"Hyung? Were you even listening?" I looked around me to see that I was in the training room already, Namjoon nudging me.

Confused, I looked around and found Yoonji beside the managers.

"You weren't even listening were you?" Namjoon sighed beside me and he shook his head.

"Sorry" I muttered. I continued staring at Yoonji, already knowing what this meeting is about.

She's very cute when she's not really paying attention. I smiled quietly to myself, looking at the ground and shuffling awkwardly .

I looked up again and tried to pay attention. Key word is tried. My mind wandered over to Min Yoonji again and my gaze followed.

I smiled softly. She was impatiently tapping her feet and playing with her fingers.

I wonder how her habits formed. Is she aware that she does them? And so cutely too.

Before I knew it, the meeting was over and we were told to go home.

"Come on lover boy. Let's get you home." Yoongi popped out suddenly beside me.

"What?" I denied and avoided eye contact, blushing lightly.

"My sister almost melted from blushing and you've been staring at her the entire time."He deadpanned.

I awkwardly laughed.

"I-I spaced out?" I suggested. He smirked and nodded mockingly.

"Yeah sure." He said and walked away from me.

Was she blushing because of me? I finally reached the van and I saw that the only spot left was with Yoonji at the back.

"Hyung you're so slow." Hoseok greeted me.

"Sorry sorry." I apologized and made my way to Yoonji who has her ear buds on. I carefully sat beside her and settled down when an ear bud was shoved in my ear.

An english song flowed through my ears.

"It's one of the songs that were playing earlier." She whispered. I nodded in understanding.

Her voice is also a nice song that I want to listen to everyday.

"What's it about?" I asked her.

I understand a few words but she doesn't need to know that.

"The singer is saying that this person makes them feel intoxicated and it's addicting. She just wants to hear his voice and just seeing his eyes feels like summertime." Yoonji explained.

I smiled and put my head on her shoulder.

"That's all?" I asked for more.

"When they're together, it feels like it's just the two of them, like they're both in a different world. It's just her and him."

Like I said and I understand words in the song. The singer is a guy and he was describing a girl but Yoonji explained it as the girl. I didn't miss the hidden meaning in her words and just sighed contentedly.

"Will she say it's love?" I asked Yoonji, patiently waiting for an answer.

"She'd say it's just an attraction. The guy must've been really good to her for her to like this guy." She answered carefully.

I chuckled at her words and agreed. He must have.

I tried to relate myself to the song and maybe I can relate to the singer.

Of course at first, I only heard stories from Yoongi when we were still trainees.

Yoongi always talked about her sister who got in trouble because someone was smack talking her brother again. Yoongi talked about how she dyed her hair to match his again. Yoongi talked about how she wanted to meet us.

I already admired her from the stories Yoongi used to tell. She was stubborn and headstrong. Yoonji fought for what she believed was right and I thought that was amazing.

When I met her in person, I didn't see Min Yoongi despite them being twins. I saw her as Yoonji. The girl with a strong personality, the girl who can make your day and ruin it effortlessly if she wanted to.

She laughed at my jokes and knew when I was sad. I was intimidated by her at first. She was able to hold an intellectual conversation with Namjoon, how can I meet her standards now?

I made her laugh. That's how we became friends. I told her a joke and she laughed. We didn't get to meet much or talk much because of our busy schedule but when we do, I'll always be nervous.

'I need to impress her.' I always thought.

It never occurred to me that trying this hard when meeting a friend isn't normal. The funny feeling in my throat and stomach wasn't normal either.

She saw the Kim Seokjin and not Jin from BTS and I'm extremely happy about that.

It's not that I liked her immediately. It's just that when we became friends, I saw what she was and she saw who I am. I saw her when she was sad and happy and she was there for me too. She always called when she can to cheer me on.

"You can do it Kim Seokjin" or "I'm proud of you Kim Seokjin" that's what I adore about her.

Now the girl is in front of me. I'm no longer adoring her from Yoongi's stories or from the rare phone calls that lasted for hours and encouraging texts she sends.

Min Yoonji is now closer than ever and I feel that if I do something wrong, I could push her back further.

When this is all over, I'd ask her out. I promise I would. I'll protect her for now. I'll take it slow and get to know everything about her first.

I already know I like her anyways and that much is obvious.

She's the moon and like the tides, I was drawn to her. She's so close and I can't let her slip.

She's beautiful. The way the sun hits her face gently when she closes her eyes or how her hair falls down her face. She's beautiful with brightly-colored hair and with red lipstick. She's beautiful without lipstick.

One thing I find her most beautiful in, is when she's looking at me. I see her nose, her eyes and lips. I see how her eyes seem to visibly brighten up when she talks about something she loves. I see how she nibbles on her lips when she's nervous and I see how her eyes just disappear when she's really happy.

She's beautiful because she isn't perfect. I know she isn't but all I see is perfection because I can see her scars. Mentally and physically.

I can't get enough of it. Like the song, I feel intoxicated. I can't stop smiling or laughing with her. I can't stop my heart from beating so fast or stop myself from worrying about her.

I can't stop unconsciously searching for her face in an entire room filled with people. 

Do you want to know why? It's because she's shaking up my heart.

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