You And Me

My Friend

I cried in my bed for almost hour laying there crying remembering the one person I looked up to when I was in doubt her name boomed in my head and it hurt like hell remembering her she was my everything my angel you can say her name was so beautiful everybody called her a him that's what my crush used to tell me before he left me with my broken heart her name was beautiful and pretty how could I forget it she had multiple names but this one I called her for as long as I knew her as long as we stayed friends before the ice melted and she started being mean to me in the fight as I try so hard to forget her I finally just let go listening to Shawn Mendes and other songs she liked on my IPad tears run down my eyes it hurt to breathe it hurt to speak I could not focus on work or eat I did not want to do anything active I just wanted to sit in my room thinking of her and listening to her songs reading her Wattpad story's she was everything she used to video call me every time I had a problem and cheered me up when she had a problem we usually talked it out but all of that changed all the happiness turned dark as we fighted for the first time as friends she held that grudge hatting me today she won't even talk to me at all I guessed it was it for us because she never talked to me again my heart tore into pieces as the tears still fell all I can think of is her nothing else all I can do is cry In my bed that's all I want to do not go to school and do work or anything like that nothing school related I just wanted to cry in my bed listening to her songs and crying remembering her her smile ,her laugh ,her voice, her face, her singing, her jokes and her messages ran into my mind it hurt so much School was hell without her I was never the same when she left the darkness took over and I said something terrible that I regret saying and wish I could take it all back but I can't I wish I could take back the things I said to my friend to but I could not so I started thinking suicide the first technique did not work but my second was working it was starving myself to death nobody knew and I would never tell anybody at school I don't belong here on earth I only push people away and I even pushed my best friend away it hurts like hell missing her and I instantly regret what I said to my friend who I always looked up to for help when I needed her her name was none other then the one and only Ace.