You And Me

A Poem For Ace

Sorrowful and Regretful
A friend I looked up to a friend who had my back someone I said I would not break somebody I would never leave but all that changed and that friendship went into dust I told her
I want her back but that seemed to not be the case I would take it all back if I could but I really can't I know you hate me but I can't fight my heart I know I hurt you more then ever and I know you can't forgive me what I did was unforgivable I know I messed up bad but I just want to tell you I still think of you and dream of you
Crying in my bed all night
Missing you I look out my window
Wishing you were still with me
But the line has been crossed and there's no turning back for us we stepped in the shadows and in the dark
I know I can't get you back in my life but I miss the red hair I used to see every day you used to make me smile all of the way but all of that has evaporated in your mind like a volcano on the Fourth of July the fireworks I can't see it burns my eyes just seeing colours fly by and go off it just reminds me all about us you were the colour and I was the black and white you were the colouring book well I was the markers you were the words to my song but this poem I wright is full of my Sorrows and Regrets I'm sorry about what happened to us I really wish I could take back what I said and we would be friends again but I can't hide the feeling that that's not possible I can't hide the tears I leave on my bed I can't hide the pain that is in my vain's it hurts a lot and I wish we could forgive each other but we can't no matter how many stars there are in the sky it's always you that is the brightest in the sky your my northern star always chilling by the huge tree right next to my house I look up in the sky every night thinking of you wishing you were with me holding me tight well I cried but the pain hurts when your not with me I wish I could see you again maybe someday but not today even though I just want to hold your hand through the dark I know your just going to see the dark power that lyes right in me and let go no matter how hard I try to pull you out you always seem to slip away I'm wounded by your words and wounded by this pain but this pain will not go away I'm sorry if I hurt you but if you can just think about being my friend once more I promise I won't hurt you again but if it's to fast just comment on this poem I gave you two months almost three so please just thing about it for me for the bunny I can't survive like this no more your name repeats in my head Ace all over again I cry for you all night wishing your there but I need you to know two things before you go full bitch I love you and I won't stop my heart won't let me you always pushed the darkness away and made me feel safe but most importantly I'm so sorry for all the pain I've caused you just know I will always dream and think of you but can you do the same do you miss me,do you think of me,do you dream of me and do you cry every single night wishing I were with you letting you cry in my arms because Ace if you need to talk to somebody about how your feeling or you feel suicidel you can always tell me and we can talk things out trust me I know the darkness I made it there are things I have not told you which I think it's time we finally talk about it I think it's time we start emailing each other again because I think your ready now to know what I've been hiding from you just know I'm always here for you I usually come back from school around 3:48 ok so you can text me on that time on the weekdays on weekends you can email me any day ok just know one thing I love you Ace your like my very own real and understanding sister sending my love
To you Ace
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