Twelve Years Later

Why me?

I woke up next to Kris. He was holding my hand and he had tears in his eyes. What's wrong with him? He woke up a few minutes after me. He was still crying.

"Hey? What's wrong?" I asked him.

"I had a nightmare that my parents got a divorce. I'm so scared now," he answered and hugged me.

I hugged him back. I was scared too. What if he has to return to Bulgaria? 

A few days later I decided to go to Lana's. I got in, hugged her mom and dad. They told me Lana is upstairs. I went to her room and in the moment I wanted to enter it, my heart got broken. I saw Kris and Lana kissing. A girl who I've known for 13 years broke me. And a boy I loved since the first time I saw him broke me. 

"Why me?" I thought.

I ran down the stairs. Lana's parents asked what's wrong but I didn't answer. I can guess they told her and she told Kris.

Lana called me like thousand of time but I didn't answer. Kris did the same. I knew they were hurt, but I was too.

Lana came to my house. Dad opened not knowing I was  mad at her. She came to my room.

"Hey? What's wrong with you Adi?" She asked.

"Why me?" I asked.

"What are you talking about?" She asked acting like she was confused.

"WHY ME?" I asked once again, crying. 

"Okay. I don't know what are you talking about," she said.

"You know. I saw you," I answered, calm.

"You saw me over million times," she faked a smile.

"Don't mess with me," I said.

"What's wrong with you?" She asked with her eyes full of tears.

"How long were you even lying to me?" I asked.

"Lying about what?" She asked.

"How long are you two together?" I cried again.

"Oh God," she whispered.

"I saw you two kissing," I added. "How long are you two together?" I repeated myself.

"I'm sorry dear," Lana cried too.

"YOU KNOW I LOVE HIM!!!" I shouted not noticing that Kris was in my room.

I got up from the bed and tried to get ot of my room, but Kris took my hand.

"What's happening with you?" He asked.

 "Leave me alone!" I shouted.

"First I want the answer," he added.

"Ask your girlfriend," I said pissed off.

"My what?" He asked again.

"She knows," Lana said.

"So you admit it?" I asked crying again.

"Fuck," Kris said.

"I KNEW IT!" I yelled.

"I'm sorry," Lana cried.

"Sorry for what?" Kris asked Lana.

"I LOVE YOU!" I sorta yelled looking straight into Kris's eyes.

"You what?" He asked confused.

"You heard me," I answered.

"I thought you hated me when we first met," Kris said.

"I fell in love with you when we first met," I added.

"Well, I did too. I told you, I thought you hated me so I... I don't know," he looked away.

"There's a difference. I love you and you loved me," I said. "You know, we shouldn't fall in love because everything that falls gets broken".

"Does that mean our friendship is over?" Lana asked and Kris nodded like he wanted to ask the same.

"It does," I said after a while.

Both of them cried. I did too.

"Please leave now," I said looking down.

"Call me if something changes," Lana said leaving the room.

A few hours later I got a message from Kris.

[kristian_kostov_official]: We broke up. I think I still love you🖤🐯🔺

I just left my usual 'seen' and turned my phone off.

"Why me?" I asked again.