Passing Feeling [One Shot]

Passing Feeling

You ever heard of the words 'I don't care'? That is exactly how I describe you... before..

I don't care if you pass by my side.

I don't care if our paths ever meet and cross.

I don't care that you don't care about me.

And I don't care if we don't call each other friends.

I don't care if we are strangers... before.

Before you came into my life, bumped my shoulder when you pass by me, met my gaze when our paths crossed, and started caring for me.

It was all so sudden, last night we were strangers then the next day we were what they call friends but then, things are damn cliché. And so our story went.

I am your friend's friend... in fact, was once someone your friend courted, but we're not for the lovers thing so we remained good friends. You... You are an acquintance I never lay interest into, you don't care about me and you don't see me as someone you can be friends with. We remained distant. I talk to your friend and to him only.

But then one time, I checked my messenger for important messages. I've had no time opening this app daily so I was shocked to see your name in it.

You messaged me? Who you? Are we friends? I don't usually reply to strangers but yours got my curiousity so I opened it.

You asked about me, your message was constructed like we were close.

You: Hey, what happened? Why are your posts so bitter?

I was stunned. Seriously? You even checked my posts and send me a message?

I was thinking that time, do you finally realized that I am someone you can be friends with?

I replied.

Me: What? Are we friends to start with? Why do you care? Hahaha

I intentionally put the 'hahaha' so I won't sound snob. Because I AM NOT. Only that people kept calling me snob. Maggots have their way of dragging me down.

You: Hahah, oh I'm sorry. I didn't say my name. My fault.

You told me your name. I knew it already, remember, you are my friend's friend so he told me about you once... but once was when he told me your name... your name, just it.

I thought, did he ever mention about me to you? Is that why you messaged me? Are you interested on knowing about me?

Later, I found myself constantly checking my messenger app, which is so not me. You made me addicted into going online just to chat you.

Simply, we became damn close. I even gave you my number because I am not constantly online. Because I am not really into onlining. And giving my number to you would put me back to my track.

To the way that I should be... and to what I once was.

We texted like we are each other's only friend. We shared a lot of things. We exchanged different stories. We laughed at each other's accident.

And then...

And then you made me feel like I'm special to you. Like I'm close to your heart.

There was once when you brought me fruit salad because I wanted to eat it. Without second thoughts, you agreed buying me the salad I want. I was thankful but that's all.

Possibilities are everywhere. Signs are screaming to my face but I ignored them. Why? Simply because I don't want to assume to uncertain things. And you are one of the uncertains in my world.

I opened up to you... well, I guess, even more than that.

Just when I accepted the fact that the signs are true, you're gone. You went your own way again. I chatted you when I spotted you're online but then, without even opening my messages you turned offline.

What can I do?

Like all fools do, I waited. I waited for the time that my message would even deserve your 'seen'. But you proved to me that 'waiting in vain' is really vain. I believed in you. I showed you my flaws and my catch. But you ignored me...

...you ignored me the exact moment I accepted that I am falling for you...

...fast and deep.

You made me feel like I'm on the clouds but at the end, you left me there.

Without the colors you once gave me because when you left, you brought them with you.

Now, I'm still on the clouds, waiting, hoping and still loving you..

Will you ever come back? Honestly, I'm getting tired. I guess, even if I love you, I have to let go and find another passing feeling from someone even better than you.

If you ever come back to me and know about my feelings for you, I hope you'll not regret my 'wasting my time being crazy inlove with you' because as much as I can, I will never fall in love with you...

...twice.