If We Go Back

Chapter 10

My heart is racing so much almost breaking my chest apart, why am I being like this.. I hate being weak, but again is this considered being weak. I stood up immediately...'' it's too late I need to leave''

I left the room so fast, collected my bag and went direct home. Am not even hungry to eat dinner, I need to calm this heart first.

I made a green tea and went to the roof to gaze upon the stars, but he still didn't leave my mind. Whenever I close my eyes I see him smiling, why does he have to smile like that!!

I feared for my thoughts to get deeper, to develop into feelings... I tried brushing them off while sleeping.

Next day I decided to go tell Yoongi that he can't touch me or kiss me, it's considered as a harassment anyways and I will not tolerate it anymore.

But to my stupidity it was finally my off, how did I even forget that!!

My off went very well, I managed to clean up the house, do my laundry, buy food supplies and all, just trying to forget yoongi as much as I can which I felt it kind of worked for some time.

Till I received a text message from him (crosswords are boring without you, whom should I pet now)

What!! Ughhh my heart started again.....

It was finally the next day, its finally it.. I will tell him to stop toying with my feelings... I am not a toy.

I knocked and went inside his room but he wasn't there, I looked in the garden but he wasn't there either... I started to get worried and asked the nurse in charge ''Oh you mean patient room 49, he went out with his grandmother.. apparently he did well in this week's so the doctor awarded him with that''

I nodded and went off to my other duties.... But I feel empty this day.... I might have actually miss him.

It was now 9pm and I was getting ready to shut my laptop and sleep till I saw this text (Just to let you know Yoongi came back with a strong fever, it looks like he was fighting with himself that turned to him being sick, please look after him carefully tomorrow, the doctor predicts it will take few days – Dr. Kim)

My heart started to itch, it must be the withdrawal symptoms he is facing. I suddenly started to get worried, and look for an excuse to go see him '' aww I forgot my charger back at the lockers'' I lied to myself with this and left immediately.

I rushed inside the hospital and went straight to his room where he was there lying on the bed with sweat covering his pale face and neck. I took a napkin and started to wipe the sweat over him. He opened his eyes and looked at me

He said with a weak smile ''Miss me much.. looks like I managed to make you fall in love with me''

I didn't care at that time of what he said ''Just shut up and focus on getting better''

Later that night I slept next to him no realizing that I actually did, I woke up around 6 in the morning and looked at him... felt his temperature and it got better.. I started to smile looking at his sleeping face that I loved to see.

I can't believe that he managed to make me fall in love with him... now I got to distract myself from him.