Our journey of a lifetime.

Chapter 14

Liv
I knocked on the studio door gently and it was opened carefully, AJ stood behind it as I handed her the phone in my hand with a smile. She sighed and rubbed her forehead with the back of her hand before opening the door wider and hugging me tightly. "I was worried about you and I got angry that you didn't call me and tell me what was happening, I'm sorry for being angry. You're family and I shouldn't have stormed out on you." She apologised and I just nodded, I knew why she was so protective and it wasn't her fault so we both let go looking at each other. I was about to mention her mother when Jungkook came up to us. "Our boss just called and told me to tell you guys that both of our groups have a joint interview next week seems as it's coming up to Christmas; this tv show do it with us every year and because you're going to be a debuting group they want to include you too to ask some questions." He told us and we nodded, next week is a week before Christmas and it's the first Christmas I'm having away from my parents. AJ smiled at him which was evidently half-hearted to me and I knew exactly why it was given that way, before anything happened with her ex-boyfriend she promised her mother she would come and spend this Christmas with her but that was changed by that one awful night and our decision to stay in Korea. Although we get the week off she wasn't able to get us the right amount of money with the apartment bills to fly us home and back which devastated her, she didn't tell me she was trying but I remember seeing a post-it note with next to her laptop with 'not enough to get home and back' clearly written on it. The look in her eyes at the apartment yesterday made me feel like she was trying to tell me but she just couldn't so I let it be.

I must've been staring as I focused on Jungkook who was now waving a hand in front of my face with that smile on his face which showed his two front teeth, I blinked and he laughed which sent chills down the back of my spine as I realised just how flawless he looked even without the stage makeup they do for every idol. "Hey... are you okay?" He asked and my face began to heat up as I nodded, AJ nudged me lightly and I looked at her with a knowing look. She showed me a genuine smile before closing the door and heading to wherever she needed to be, my lesson scheduled for this morning was rap so I wouldn't have to put up with the constant tingle feeling I got around Jungkook until later today where I'm more awake and aware of how I'm feeling. I quickly bowed to Jungkook before running in the same direction that Namjoon and Suga went a few minutes before I stopped to give AJ her phone. Once I was out of Jungkook's hearing range I sighed as my heart raced and pounded in my chest, it felt weird as I knew I'd never felt that before with anyone so all of this was new to me. Maybe I can talk to AJ about it later and she could help me understand what's going on, she's older so she should have felt something like this before too right? I was finally tugged from my thoughts as I came to the same studio Suga and Namjoon were in yesterday, I knocked on the door and they let me in before sitting down in front of me. "So... we had some time to look for a song while you were giving AJ her phone so we both decided on Cypher part four, we know that you're more of a vocalist than a rapper so we're going to take it easy on you. I nodded and they pushed me into the small booth area as if they were throwing me to the wolves, although I had a lyric sheet I was still a bit nervous as this is still my favourite Cypher out of all of them. I pulled the headphones on and the music started almost instantly as I started the rap, the intro always reminded me of when me and AJ were younger and we always used to run around as if we were thieves trying to creep around to the music. It made me smile to think about how happy we have stayed since we met a few years back and we've never left each other even through the impossible, like when AJ left for college and I was still in school because that was extremely hard and I was alone most mornings until we both escaped.

Before I knew it the Cypher was over and I was walking out of the booth with Namjoon and Suga clapping. "You seemed as if you were thinking about something the whole time because you hardly ever blinked or looked at the lyric sheet, what was running through your mind?" Namjoon asked and I explained what me and AJ used to do, it made both of the boys smile as we started talking about the upcoming interview. They told me that the last few times were quite funny because they had been given weird questions to answer and strange gifts that made them laugh when the other members realised what it had to do with the member the gift was given to, I smiled and thought about what me and AJ might have gotten if we were there during that time. "She misses her family you know..." I muttered and they both looked at me confused. "I mean... I miss my parents and AJ misses her mum, before we even thought about coming here she promised her mum that she would spend Christmas with her but I saw a note on her laptop which says that she won't have enough money to go home and keep her promise." I stated and they both nodded before looking at each other, I looked up at them and they smiled sympathetically. "We know how that feels, although we can't exactly empathise with how much money you have to spend just to get over to where your parents are we know what it's like to miss them so trust us when we say that you'll be okay in time and you will see your parents more than you think you will." Namjoon explained and I nodded at him, I'm so thankful that there are people like Namjoon in this world who are born to lead others and help them in their time of need. People like that is what others need in their day to day lives to help guide them through the tough times because Namjoon is helping us and so are the rest of the boys in BTS as we start our new life. And I'm thankful that we have trainers who know how tough the road will be for the next few months as they've been through it all and experienced the things that we are about to experience.